Ben :)

2009-03-25T21:01:00.002+08:00

Elevate you!
(♥)

OKAY. Finally blogging again :D I have a few good news and bad news.

First, the good news. My spiritual walk with God has been improving! Yes, it really comes naturally (I think). Yup, breakthroughs have been coming! I'm excitedddd.

Secondly, I've finally understood the Differentiations topic! Though it's only like the mostest basic LOL. But it's still a start! Haha, yeah so I've realised my math was really really rusty. I totally forgot all of my indices and stuff. Oh well, it's improving anyway (:

That's not all, but that' s all I can remember for now ._____.

Anyway bad news. This blog is officially going to be deaddddddddd. This might be the last post you read in a loooong time (not confirmed), but yup there's a possibility. Anyway I'm tireddddd. Bye!

2009-03-21T10:40:00.002+08:00

[x ] You have yelled at an inanimate object for 'hurting' you.
[x ]You ever ran into a glass/screen door.
[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x ] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.
[ ] You ever ran into a tree/bush
[ ] You have been called a "blonde"
[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[ ] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm
[x ] You sang them to make sure.
[x ] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[ ] You have choked on your own spit.
so far: 5

[ ] You have seen the Matrix/Star Wars and still don't get it
[ ]You type with three fingers or less.
[ ] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[x ] You have caught yourself drooling

so far: 6

[x ]You have fallen asleep in class
[ ] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[x ] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you were talking about.
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[ ] You are often told to use your "inside voice"

so far: 8

[x ] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[ ] You have eaten a bug accidentally.
[x ] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[x ] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.

so far: 12

[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't.
[x ] You break a lot of things.
[x ] You tilt your head when you're confused
[x ]You have fallen out of your chair before.
[ ] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[x ] The word "um" is used many times a day.
[ ] You don't know what "um" means.
[x ] You say "what" and "huh" a lot.
[x ] You used a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin.
Total: 18

MULTIPLY BY 3 & REPOST WITH "I AM _% RETARDED"

Bleh, 54% retarded >:

2009-03-19T21:47:00.002+08:00

Loook what I foundddddd.

Yes, this was my class in sec 1. Top row, 3rd white shirt dude from the left :)

2009-03-15T10:18:00.000+08:00

OMGGG PRO SONGGG LOL.

2009-03-12T20:51:00.003+08:00

CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO END. OMGOSHHH I'M DYING HELP SOMEONE AHHHH ):

I'm still in the holiday mode. Hehe.

2009-03-06T14:20:00.002+08:00

Zomg I love this video :D

Affff, I need to get better in this game! >:|

2009-03-04T18:42:00.004+08:00

Updaaate! :D

Okay, so what's been happening recently?

On sunday, we finally completed the series of the relationship sermon thing. Yup, so afterwards, we all rushed to the rooftops to support the people who went for the water baptism! Congratulations to : Seb Tay, Jia Zheng, Kenneth, Jacqueline, Sarah! :D Haha, and it was also Gabriel's birthday! Happy (belated) buddy.
Anywho, we were supposed to go to West Coast Park for NXGen, but it start raining cats and dogs. We were left with no choice but to have it in the church building. It was still fun though! It was like a chain of games. 4 to be specific, anyway our first station was the jigsaw puzzle one. I reckon we picked the toughest puzzle, since we took the longest time to complete it :/ Looking at how the other teams completed it faster really demoralized us, hehe. Turned out, there were missing pieces in the puzzle too.
However, once it was gotten over with, we picked up our pace.
Second station: What is usually known as 'Spider Web' - Teamates have to cross the 'web' without touching any part of it. We got through that rathe quickly, and next was some sudoku thing! Man, it was kinda hard but we got through it still. :D And at the final station, we had to run down a flight of stairs 17 times to get the numbers 1-17. It was okay, not very challenging since my legs were pretty long so I could run lol.
Anyway it was fun no-doubt.

Skipping monday, I'll go on to tuesday. Went for morning training! Haha, yes I did. And I kinda liked it, except the part where there is no 5 metre flag to tell me when I'm approaching the wall. Other than that, I think I did fairly well for my first training in more than a year :D
Yup, I even went for training today tooo. Man my time deproved so much, but I still managed to pull through hehe. I'm rather pleased :D

OKAY SO HERE'S OUR CLASS PHOTO FOR THE YEAR BOOK!
I look like a ghost, A ghost of 4.1 to be exact. Wew.

2009-02-28T11:24:00.002+08:00

Okay, another quiz from facebook huahae.

1. What is more difficult, looking into someone’s eyes when you are telling them how you feel or when they are telling you how they feel?

Second one.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. Why were you angry?

Hehe don't remember.

3. You are on a flight non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You get enough time to make ONE phone call. Who would you call?

Mum LOL.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live.
a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going?
A few people.

b) What do you do with your remaining days?
Hehe, try to go to Heaven.

c) Would you be afraid?

I'd be afraid of missing people )':

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love. Which do you choose?

When you love people you'll slowly trust them right? Hence, love.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in on the side of the street, Your boss has told you that if your late one more time your fired. Do you save it?

Obviously!

7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her?
Yes, and of course I'll apologize ):

8. Who is the one person that knows you best? Why that person?

God :D

9. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

Well, not really. I would be too full of myself hahhahaha- not.

10. Does love = sex?

Haaa no.

11. Your boss tells your co-worker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your co-worker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company?

That truly depends on whether I can find another job.

12. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you feel?

Loooong time ago.

13. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?

That I don't love them back. :/

14. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up?

My friends.

15. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them.

Idk :/

16. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, if you HAD to even if you have “no regrets”,what would you change?

Eh, that should remain secret.

17. Imagine: it is a dark night and you are alone, it is raining outside. You hear someone walking around outside your window. Who do you wish was there with you?

Errrr... that's not really possible. It it's raining he'll probably slip and fall 18 storeys down.

18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying?

Man I might accidentally kill that person faster :x

19. You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other which one would it be.

My grandmother.

20. Are you old fashioned?

Noooooooooooo :D

21. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a heart break or have never loved before?

True love, if it has a happy ending.

22. If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?

I wan b rich sir.

23. What’s the last mistake you made?

Not changing passwords. Meh.

24. Is the sun shining?

Yaaa, almost noon.

25. Can you successfully blow up and tie a balloon?

YES HAHAHA.

26. Do you like text messaging?

Not really, so lazy. Gotta press the scrolling thing so hard ):

27. Are you having a good/bad hair day?

Idk, still in the just-woke-up state.

28. What was your last purchase?

Refreshments for yesterday.

29. Was it worth it?

Idk.

30. What are your plans for later?

JAMMING!

31. What is your favorite guitar hero song?

I don't play that I'm sorry.

32. Is there any drama within your life?

Dramaaaaaaaa don't think so.

33. What is a song they need to stop playing on the radio?

Hehe I don't listen to the radio.

35. Does anyone like you?

Maybe.

36. What is your current obsession?

Gaming ._.

37. Do you have your license?

For?

38. Ever been kissed under mistletoe?

What the no.

39. By who?

@___@

40.Who did this note before you?

Ian Lee.

41. Whos your last missed call?

Mum.

43. Last curse word you said was?

Can't remember.

45. Are you currently jealous?

Not currently.

46. Do you own an ipod?

Gosh, both of mine broke ):

47. Did you have a dream last night?

YES LOL SO WEIRD.

48. Are you mad at anyone?

Nupe.

49. Who is the most random person you know?

Ivandy.

50. What’s going on this weekend?

It's satuday - Jamming.
Sunday - church service, friends' water baptism, NXGen's trip to west coast park!

51. Why were you last upset?

Cause I had to go to school.

52. Anything bothering you?

Maaybe.

53. Did you wish for anything last night on 11:11?

I wished for a cab.

54. Do you drink coffee on a regular basis?

Yes, but I would prefer tea.

55. Do you wish you were someone else?

Kind of.

56. What jewelry are you wearing?

None.

57. Eat any exotic food lately?

Mmmmno.

58. How many contacts do you have on MSN?

124.

59. Are you easily amused?

Haha probably.

60. Can you lick your elbow?

No but I can lick yours.

61. Do you know this song, “we stay fly no lie you know this”?

Yo brah, i no diggin you.

62. Do you have a crush right now?

No. I wouldn't consider it as one anyway.

63. What are your plans over the summer?

Summmerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

64. How’s life going for you?

Sucks.

65. What is on your mind just this second?

"Wew, finally completed."

OKAY. HELLO.

2009-02-27T09:16:00.002+08:00

OKAY. Updating with one of these things on facebook. Haha, so boreeed.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Ehh, probably not.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Haaa can't remember :)

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yeahh :D

4. DO YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND? IF NO, WOULD YOU WANT ONE?
Nope, and I don't know ):

5. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Srs yaa.

6. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Haha, pretty much.

7. HOW DO YOU WANT YOUR LIFE TO BE IN A COUPLE OF YEARS? (REALISTICALLY PLEASE)
Richh and abroad!

8. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Erm, not really a fan of it but sure, why not? :D

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Frosties !

10. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Hehe no.

11. WOULD YOU MOVE AGAIN?
If I could.

12. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Good/not so good looking.

13. RED OR PINK?
Wew how many times have I answered this.

14. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Leg hair LOL.

15. WHAT DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Holidaysss.

16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Nobody in particular.

17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
Lol, not tagging anyone x)

18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
Ehh, not wearing any of the above. :x

19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Slow Decay - Dashboard Confessional.

20.WHAT ANNOYS YOU THE MOST?
The problems which don't stop coming.

21. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Chocolate/coffee!

22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Isaac hehe. I have to go to school asdokaspdko ):

23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
Well technically you didn't send it to me. But I don't mind :D

24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Haaaaaa nothing.

25. HAIR COLOR?
Brown-almost-black. :/

26. EYE COLOR?
Brown/slight hazel.

27. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAJOR REGRETS?
Who doesn't? >:|

28. FAVORITE FOOD?
I can't remember, seriously.

29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Scary would be more fun :)

30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED, AND WITH WHOM?
Wew.. can't remember when I last watched a movie.

31. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
None.

32. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winterrrr.

33. HUGS OR KISSES?
Eh. Hugs first :D

34. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Nobody.

35. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Nobodyy.

36. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
None currently, but I should start.

37. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
My cat ._.

38. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Nothing!

39.WHAT LITTLE THINGS MAKES YOU HAPPY?
Heehee idk. Trial and error pls.

40. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Sadly, none.

41. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Aus, lol.

42. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Undiscovered. LOL.

43 WHERE WERE U BORN?
Thomson Hospital.

44. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
Nobody's.

45. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
Haven't met her. Where are youuuuuuuuuu.

2009-02-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

Update!

An apology to all my faithful ( or not ) readers who have been checking up on my blog and hoping to see an update. This one's for youuu.

School's been a drag as usual. Geoff(rey) hollers me for MCs all day long it's so annoying. I've heard many teachers saying that Geoff is going to resign soooon. I don't know if I should be happy or not :/ It's really annoying to a large extent. Completed all the term 1 tests, and I should confess I'm still in the holiday mood. I even though of quitting school at a point of time, wew! Nono, that shouldn't be revived. Anyway, yupp - school's not enjoyable in any way.

I can't wait to meet up with the FTG! Heard JC's been a blast lol. Buttt I'm thinking of going to a poly anyway. People might have had the impression that poly is for the not so intellectually privilleged people but no. If I were to go to a JC, which recognized one would I go to using my DSA? RJC, VJC, ACJC? Idk, but I wouldn't want to go to AC. If I did, I would have practically spent all my primary, secondary, JC education in an anglo-chinese instutite. Heh, sec 1 wasn't counted :o
RJC is at Bishan, and it takes me just about an hour to reach there. So let's say school starts at 7.40am, I have to be up at 6, and leave the house at 6.30am. I'm already having trouble waking up at 6.30am lol. VJC is in the east so don't bother.
Whereas Ngee Ann Poly, is like 20 minutes away from my house and not to mention it's a straight bus! With irregular times, it's most likely to be the best environment for me. Or I could also go to the SIM 3-year course thingy.

Swimming - yaaa resuming. But I heard to get into the YOG trials I have to use SNAG. Hey, that's in like a few week and I haven't even trained/signed up for it. Meeh, lol.
OKAY I think I've written enough.
Anywaaay, I'll be trying the game Requiem - Bloodymare. Really really gory, but I'm so bored really. I wanna play l4d actually, but I don't wanna buy it >; Ahh we'll see lol.

2009-02-15T20:09:00.002+08:00

Okay, reviving this due to popular demand. ;]

Firstly, I'll start off by taking that quiz which Edward tagged me on facebook, and doing it here instead :)

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Ben Tan? LOL idk.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Haaah can't remember :)

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yessss sort of!

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAL?
Unhealthy food q__q.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
No and I don't want to.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Of course! :D

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
I just did.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Oh what, they never got removed.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Sure, why not?

10. WHAT DO YOU CARRY WITH YOURSELF ALL THE TIME??
Wallet, phone, bag, and practically everything I was born with.

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
FROSTIESSSS OMGOSH.

12. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nah.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Butterscotch T_T. I like B&J though :D

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Of which gender?

15. RED OR PINK...
REDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ♥

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My hair which looks ugly ):

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Aww.

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
Not tagging anyone aha.

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
No shoes, grey jeans :)

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
When You're Around - Motion City Soundtrack.

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
A red one.

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
The smell of your hair <3 whoever you are :/

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Hehe mum.

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
Hi Edward. Thanks for all the homework :)

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Currently really inactive in sports :/

27. HAIR COLOR?
Brown,

28. EYE COLOR?
Hazel.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
I wanna wear light grey ones ):

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
Idk. Anything yummy ;]

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Scary movies with happy endings.

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Ip Man : D

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Yellow.

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
WINter.

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
I do both ty.

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
?

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
...

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Geography Insights 4.

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
A cat.

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Didn't watch TV last night.

42. FAVORITE SOUND(S)
Drums drums drumssss. Music :)

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
ROLLING BEATLES HAHAH nevermind.

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Australiaaaa.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Yessss, but I have yet to discover it. Or so I think.

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Singapore.

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
Noone.

48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
Hah, still waiting to meet her.

49. WHAT DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
The holidays.

50. WHAT LITTLE THINGS MAKES YOU HAPPY?
Those little things which actually make some happy.

Okay sooo it's been a long time since I last blogged. Only significant events I can recall are - Having food poisoning, skipping school like a lot and life hasn't been that great for me.

Wish me a better 2009 ):

2009-02-06T05:47:00.002+08:00

Casting resurrection...

This blog is revived.

Yup, I'm sorry for not posting for so long. Didn't really find the mood to ):

Not much has been happening, asides the fact that I find it so hard to wake up in the morning for school, walk a distance, cross the overhead bridge, and walk even more to the assembly grounds. Studying's okay. I've attempted studying in the library and I got somewhere :D Yeha, soooo I'm gonna have to mug for the upcomming common tests. Bleh.

Tagged by Yi Chong.

Who was the person who tagged you?
Yi Chong.

Relationship between you and him?
Friends

Your 5 impressions of him
-Vulgar.
-Impulsive.
-But nice.
-Hard working.
-CLB HAHA.

If he becomes your enemy, you will...
Prepare yourself for a verbal flood of vulgarities.

What would you say to the person you like very much?
Eh, no. Straight kthx.

Characteristics(s) i like about myself?
Tall! Is that a characteristic? Well I'm often optimistic :D

Characteristics(S) i hate about myself?
Lazy-ness? Or procastination? Ah, same thing.

For the person whom you hate, you say...
,,|,,

What do the people around you feel about you?
"lol benong pon school" :D

Your crush(es)
What.

Pass this on to 10 people
SKIPPING THIS WHOLE SECTION ): SO LAZY TO THINK AHHHHH.

Okay it's time to go to schoool. Byebye!

2009-01-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

Chased away the thoughts.
(♥)

YES OKAY so I'm gonna blog for the sake of keeping this thing alive! I'm prolly gonna just change the skin to a white-based one again since black really makes me moody ):

Yup sooo.. it's the time to get into the mood of studying. Very reluctant, but I don't have a choice. Homework is gonna start piling up, and I have yet to complete my Amath/Physics work omgggg. Okay must do already.

Anyway, I was on time for school today. First time to be exact. :D Well the only reason why I was early is cause I didn't even sleep the whole night. Didn't really die but I just took a nap during recess, and another earlier on. I still feel tireddd ):

Heh, okay market-place explosion tomorrow. AHHHHHHHH gotta turn on my heart of expectancy.

AND PREACHING TEST ON SUNDAY aaaaaa ):

2009-01-26T21:11:00.001+08:00

The greatest fall out.
(♥)

OH GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD MY IPOD BROKE. AGAIN. ))):

Crap, seriously, I want a BRAND NEW one.

Oh well, that's another thing to add on the to-buy-but-no-cash list. ):

2009-01-25T02:57:00.002+08:00

I've been to a mirage.
(♥)

Gonna embark on one of the roughest journeys of my life, undoubtedly.

Well yeah, it's chinese new year already, and things are not going that smoothly.

Service was really interesting when Pst. Kong shared about how chinese words depict a scene in the B.C. times. Showed us that the chinese believed in the same God as we christians. Never knew chinese could be so interesting (:

Soooo after debrief things started getting a little moodless for me. Talking about things happening in the cell group, it makes me just wanna quit and just slack off again. But no, that won't happen. There seems to be no obstacle able to withold something you value. Does that make sense? Pardon me, it's late. Anyway yeah.. I've got a lot of thinking to do.
Problems after problems after problems. Not like they're getting solved anyway. Whatever, if there's a will there's a way. Now I just have to find the will.

Okay! Soo the second thing this ridiculous incident occured. I put in 60 cents for my bus ride and the bus captain (putting it really nicely) told me to tap my card cause he didn't believe that I was a student. Soooo knowing this would happen, I tapped my card and not suprisingly it showed Adult Fare. Seriously, these bus captains are getting on my nerves. Next time this happens I'll just tell them to report me. Not like I'm doing anything wrong anyway. Yes yes, all of you might be saying "Why not just renew your card?!?". And I'll say "Do I have the time?" and you'll say "Do you want to have the time?" or whatever. This never ends, I'll just end up running out of "excuses".

Meh, I'm tired now. Nights.

2009-01-21T18:51:00.003+08:00

Roast.
(♥)

OKAAAAAAAAAY, finally back from Malaysia. At certain points of time I am so glad to be back. Other times I kinda miss that place. I forcefully left all my feelings there okaaay, so tomorrow will be a whole new day for me!

I'm like tanner/burnt, and I finally got my red hoodie ♥♥.

Lol, I'll blog about it when the photos are up on facebook.

All in all, this whole trip was fun. From jungle trekking to sea rafting, to walking in mud, cool team building activities, climbing rockwalls, drinking alcohol cause Malaysia doesn't even care, braving the averaged 1 half hour bus rides which help us recooperate, and getting puked on. So yesss just wait :D

To be continued...

2009-01-16T01:05:00.002+08:00

My God, it's 1 am already.

I have to :

- Eat my dinner.
- Take a shower.
- Pack my luggage.
- Including my backpack.
- Do my quiet time.
- Have a good night's rest.
- Be in school for assembly by 7.30am.

Great :D

And I couldn't find that red hoodie either. Sigh, devastated much ):

Okaay so I'll be gone for 6 days, 16th - 21st. Not like anyone cares but, whatever.

Bye!

2009-01-14T20:55:00.002+08:00

Tell me you'll be fine.
(♥)

Wew, I'm really so so so bored. I need a new game or I'm going to die of boredooooom. Cabal is starting to become a drag. It's pretty lifeless no offence. All my other friends don't play any games too, wew. I'm like the only gamer left between all my close friends! Okay maybe I should stick to anime.

Ahh whatever, lol.

2009-01-13T20:29:00.002+08:00

Rusty for good.
(♥)

Gosh, Seriously so bored. Gotta do my homework later on (nerd) and yeaaah.
I shall come up with a list as to what I have to accomplish by february or it will really affect my studies.

I have to :-

Get my sec 4 books.

Seriously, I just realised I can't do my emath homework cause I don't have the book. -___-
And I need the SS textbk by thursday or I have to go borrow it from another class, which I seriously dislike doing.

Taper my pants.

My freaking long pants are sooooooooo baggy. S-e-r-i-o-u-s-l-y. I have to do something about it, period.

Get new headphones.

Sooo my trusty headphones which had a lifespan of 4 years finally broke down. I was listening to music in class and it suddenly "short circuited" or something like. Neeed spare headphones for the busride to malaysia!

Get THAT red hoodie.

Yes, so I've only told Ben Tan about this. Just when I was coming down from the bus, I saw this girl. Wasn't particularly interested about the girl, but the hoodie seriously caught my eye. It's RED ♥ and black inside. Omgoshh I want I want. I think it's from TOPMAN, gonna go hunting soon :D

Find a studying spot.

Thinking of the Starbucks @ West Coast Plaza. I don't wanna study at home cause I'll definitely end up playing the computer, which is what I'm doing nowwww. Ahhhh.

Yes that's about it. Easy? Not for me. So financially tight, and so procastinaty right now, it seems as if nothing can be accomplished, but I must!

Right, two more days of school and I'm leaving for Malaysiaaa. Gotta be in school at 7.20am for assembly on friday since we're departing right after morning devotion and stuff. Soo thinking of reaching school at 8 :/

Ahh we'll see. Loooong day at school tomorrow! Ahh.

2009-01-12T10:43:00.004+08:00

When you see that lady.
(♥)

Okay I admit I haven't been updating cause I've lost interest. It's starting to become a chore again heh. Anywho, I shall still bash through this for the time being.

Yupp, so I told myself that I'd take a picture of my timetable, and put it on my blog to let others see it cause I'm amazed. Never have I gotten such a timetable in my life. And I'm pretty happy about it too :D

Legend: Orange - Free periods.
Yellow - Recess.
Black - Either Amath or SS.

This week's week B. Soo my schedule goes like PE > Recess > Amath > Free periods until PC. FYI, PC is either a talk, or a free period (imo). Just so happens that I couldn't wake up today, and I missed school! So I practically only missed Amath cause the rest of the subjects are just not needed as muchhh. Amath wise, I've heard bad comments of the teacher so I'm not really sure if I did miss anything at all lol.

Okay whatever, I'm a troublemaker ):

2009-01-05T15:18:00.002+08:00

Blue ocean, Red ocean. @_@
(♥)

Bleh, second day of school, first of the week.

Started off with a REALLY REALLY REALLYYYY long talk by Drong, which ate up into SS. Didn't have enough time for the english diagnostic test either. Recess, then an hour of boring physics. I can forsee myself hating physics really soon. Yuuuup so after physics was kinda like free period the whole day. 40 minutes chinese, 1 hour chem prac, 40 minutes PC.

Soo yeah my edusave has $614. I don't have to pay for CDP which is at like 18 Jan? Hohoho. And my passport is magically renewed too. I remember I didn't want to go to Bali last year cause my passport wasn't renewed lolol.

Gonna cut my hair later, or else I'd be sent to the school barber tomorrow. My long pants is really really really seriously huge too. I totally dislike/hate/detest it. Need to alter soooon or I'll go mad!

K that's all folks. :D

2009-01-02T23:35:00.004+08:00

I got soul but I'm not a soldier.
(♥)

Alright, the first post of the new year.

Firstly I'd like to say that there are many many things I want to say but by the time I complete 1 of them, I would have forgotten the rest. So here goes nothing~

On the 31st of december! Planned a cell group thanksgiving/leaders' appreciation/countdown party. I'd say it pretty much fulfilled the main purpose of the event, just a little problems here and there which made things rather difficult.

In all, thank you Shawn, Lina, Ben, Aaron, and Yu Jie for giving us such a wonderful 2008! I can say that 2008 was my best year.

Aaaaand so we counted down to 2009 too! The new year came so quickly, and suprisingly I quickly adapted to the new year.

Headed for the night cycling when everything was over. Initially, we only planned to cycle till 6am+? Ended up, we cycled from Kembangan to Changi Village unprepared. Seriously, our legs ached, our asses hurt, and we were so so so tired. Didn't sleep the whole day, resulting in really really tired guys sleeping at McCafe at 7am. Met a few other groups of cyclists, they were pretty lost too lol.

Anyway before reaching east coast, Cavin rode his bike and something happened, causing him to crash against a wall, and his phone flew out. The battery fell into the canal and he managed to salvage his phone and phone cover lol. When we returned to Aaron's place in the morning around 9am, we had an adventure by trying to retrieve the phone battery from the canal. Ended up with a spoilt battery, 2 filty guys and 1 less filty but still filty lol.

Seriously I was so tired and sleepy after that, I just KO'd all the way home. I felt like I was gonna die while walking home lol. So that was the new year for you (:

Forced to go to school on the first day, and it. was. boring. Found out that my new form teacher resigned even before the first day of school (wowlame). Assigned to the band 1 english class, which is also my english & form teacher last year, same lit teacher, and yeah.
I was late on the first day, and the prefect went "hi... you're late... but you won't get booked..." And I went "hi... duh... it's the first day T_T"

Meh, english diagnostic test on monday, and yeah. School sucks man.

Pictures according to time taken.

Praise & Worship.

Word.

One of the three people who did the bible reading!

Barbe-crew!

Just when we managed to settle the people down,

Some looked confused.

Then they got happy :D

Bush giving a heartwarming speech about Ben.

Peach's turn.

Kee Meng's turn. This was very last minute so thumbs up to Kee Meng!

And it came to my turn!

Jia Zheng's turn, lol he was so nervous :p

Prolly everyone who came :D

People out, Drinks in.

2009!

LOL, the camera went off by suprise.

2008-12-29T14:52:00.002+08:00

You called me yours forever.
(♥)

Graaaar, a question I have asked myself is:

" What have you done this whole holidays? "

I can easily tell you my schedule on my "off" days. Which means no church or cell group outings or whatsoever.

Wakes up: 2-3pm
Plays until: 7-8pm
Eats dinner: For about half an hour
Continues playing until: 4am.

Yeah, I am such a bum. And so, thinking about the 31st of december. Why did I even choose to organize it. It all started out with Leaders' Appreciation, not Cellgroup Thanksgiving. To think that I could actually do something like this. Well maybe I could, but I've procastinated too much. Well that's what I do best right? Procastinate. Ahh, whatever.

And YOU, keep leaving me stranded right there. Pick me up, and just throw me away when you're done. It's not helping to anything, if you haven't noticed. I don't know if it was coincidental or not, but when I did my quiet time and asked God to speak to me through His word, I randomly flipped and got to the passage where Nehemiah was building the wall.

Nehemiah 6:1-16.

I'm afraid of doing what is told, but really should I? Is it even what God wants me to do. I believe I'm so unspiritual that I can't even discern right from wrong.

And these are only two of the problems I'm facing right now. Seriously, God I need help.

2008-12-28T01:11:00.002+08:00

And I need you now.

(♥)

OKAY. FINALLY UPDATING ONCE AGAIN. What day is it, saturday? Anywho, christmas services on wednesday and thursday.

It was awesooooome. The drama team just put so much effort into it, and they really deserve a big applause. It was named OPERATION: SAVE THE WORLD. A drama production on how the angels were assigned to this mission to bring Jesus the saviour into Earth. Pictures at the bottom (:

On thursday I went to jurong west ( wednesday @ expo ) to try to help out a little in a sense. Same drama, same message, but the purpose is different. It really made me feel like I had something to do, rather than waste my time on the computer at home. Well, I still haven't got to be a counsellor ): Keep getting KS'd hahahah. It's okay, my time will come! Queued up for seats at like 2, when service starts at 3.30pm. Got floor seats ( which is kinda good ), and it was sooo pressurising cause the ushers were so buggy. Anywho, Ben and I gave up our seats for the new friends. Was supposed to seat infront to help build up the atmosphere but our seats got snatched away by peeps sooo yeah. Front row of the choir side taken, proceeded to second row of the middle section. It's like omg! It's just a row behind all the pastors. Was beginning to feel so privelledged to be able to sit there, but those seats got snatched too so yeah. Ended up seating in the front row of the stairs (: Lol. No regrets though, it felt good to serve :D

Okaaaaay and so yesterday was Kenneth's birthday! (26th december). Only managed to reach there at 10+ since I had to accompany my mum out. Played a few games of pool, and we left since it was like 11.50+? They managed to catch the last bus home but Ben and I were stuck in bugis >_> Took a bus which took us to holland v, and decided to just walk. But first, went to cold storage and bought stuff to accompany us on our journey :D
Embarked on a walk from Holland V to Clementi, which was pretty successful. I mean we reached clementi at like 3am? Sat at the bus stop until 5am, before deciding to go home.
I reached home and snacked a little cause I didn't eat lunch nor dinner ): Ended up falling asleep in my pile of snacks! That was like close to 6-6.30am? And suprisingly I woke up at 9. No idea what woke me up.. prolly my mum's shoutings lol. Anywho went back to sleep and woke up again at 2!

(Starting to get a little wordy :/)

Anyway today's service was an interview with Sun, Pastor Kong's wife! First time actually seeing her. What it really spoke to me throughout the whole interview was that even though Sun is a big hit, a celebrity and all. In person she too, just looks like a normal human being. Two arms, too legs, two eyes etc. If she can do such wonderful things in the world, why can't some of us too? I believe it is really just whether you start seeking your calling and whatnot.

Whatever negative words the newspaper used regarding Sun, which also brings about a bad impression to the non-city harvesters. All I can say is that you have to experience it to cast your perspective. Some people have this hatred against CHC just because of the rumours of Sun, and their narrow mindsets.

What she said today, about going out into the market place and shining as salt and light really impacted me. God created the entertainment world, the arts and media. Definitely he would want his people to shine in those industries too, and not be confined in being a preacher, evangelist etc.

Yes and so, I'm feeling really pumped up :D Ahhhhhhhhhhh the 31st of december CAN BE A SUCCESS.

w400!

Candle light!

w400 again~

Drama production :D this is when Jesus was already born.

Aaand Kenneth's birthday @ swensens.

2008-12-23T12:46:00.002+08:00

Sweet Sixteen.
(♥)

Sooo, I am finally 16. I can watch NC16 shows with ease :D

Thanks guys for all the gifts and wishes, I seriously didn't expect so many people to even bother wishing me. But yes, I really want to thank MY MUM, Seb Tay and Zac for going that extra mile (: Not to mention Ben Tan, Kenneth, Jia Zheng, Shirlynn and Diana too. And thanks to everyone who has wished me happy birthday! Thankshouyyy.

Okay! So I was taken by suprise, when my mum gave me a red packet with a little note on it. It was very very very special to me. Ahhhh, I felt so touched :D Anyway yeah, met up with the band members. Faced a minor problem before the jamming session started, but it got solved pretty quickly :D Jamming wasn't as good as last week's, but the last part was nicee. Anywho, I really need more practice.

Sooo I felt really really tired after the session ( no idea why ), but yeah was better at starbucks after dinner. It's prolly the fragrance of coffee :D Yesss anyway, yesterday was an enjoyable day.

Once again, thank you guys for everything :D

Christmas service tomorrow! Woo!

2008-12-21T02:05:00.002+08:00

All these time you've been waiting.
(♥)

Hello! Been to town again, to do a bit of christmas gift shopping for the new friends who are coming for the christmas services.

Anyway first things first. I forgot to mention something. It was so funny, at the foodcourt in Westmall, and everyone was watching The Little Nyonya. It's like even if they didn't have any food, they just sat there watching the TV. AND when it was 10pm, the show ended and EVERYONE got out of their seats and left the place, as if they had just finished watching a movie lolol.

Okay! So went to suntec/marina! Imma start buying those tees like in Topman :D Ahhh yeah time to go for budget new fashion sense heh. Then chilled at Starbucks for a couple of hours since we felt reaaaaaalllyy tired. Man, I've been out of the house so many days. And just last year I don't even step out of the house. Big improvement :D

Yupp, anyway candlelight service tomorrow! Gotta help out with the hostel friends. Busy busy!

2008-12-20T00:49:00.002+08:00

Bumblebee o' bumblebee.
(♥)

Seriously, I think I'm becoming more and more like a gay in terms of body actions. Noooo, too much soyabean ):

Okay! Anyway went out with Ben Tan, Bush, Kenneth, Jia Zheng and Shirlynn. Did a bit of christmas shopping, and they got me my birthday gift :D Yay grey pair of skinnies. Dooood, we went into the shop and it's like "This is a girls shop?" and the lady said "Yes this is a girls shop but we have guy customers too." And suprisingly I went to try on that pair of jeans and it fit soooo nicely. AND AND AND it's soooo cheap. I couldn't believe it when I first heard the price. Woow, secret k.

Anyway yess, rather happy. I finally have "more clothes to add into my arsenal." as quoted by Ben Tan :D It's been forever since I have gotten any clothes for myself. Wew, I'm broker than broke >;
Went to BIBI&BABA to change the size of my long pants. Sadly, it is now baggy. Ahhhh, yeah okay I think we walked quite a bit around town. Saw many many churches stepping out to do performances in the middle of orchard road.

And yesss, I crave that red French Connection shirt which says FCUKVIOLENCE. Gonnagonna get it when I get money. Idk but I suddenly have this craze for t-shirts too :D Man, money no enough ok ):

Well whatever, kinda tired. Bye (:

2008-12-18T12:54:00.002+08:00

Lala-leh.
(♥)

Hello! Finally blogging after another long break. Okay this whole week has been pretty busy.

On sunday! Went for another jamming session, but this time I really improved a lot. Hoho so happy :D Played the song "The God I know", which is also the first song I played in the recording. Hehe.

Moving on to tuesday, headed to Diana's house to make Yujie's present. Had to do a painting with the name "Elisha" on it, and yup. Got it done, so we all went for prayer meeting at the Jurong West building, all 10 of us. Presence in this place was really different. Well it might have been Pastor Kong, and it also might have been all the people who were hungry for God that made the atmosphere. So it's really about getting back to the spirit, gotta extinguish all sense of tiredness and moodlessness this christmas. Let's hit 54,000 people! :D

Okay and wednesday! It was our AC Zone's christmas party! Photos on facebook, I'm too lazy to upload them. Besides, my hair was so messed up then )': It was fun, the food was great. Fellowship was better. And not to mention the shirts look great too (: Those people who didn't come really missed out on a lot. Haha.

Thursday (today) is finally my "offday". Wanna catch a well deserved break, after travelling to the east and west so many times!
Sunday: Home, Jurong West, Clarke Quay, Home.
Tuesday: Home, Kembangan, Jurong West, Home.
Wednesday: Home, Clementi, Suntec City, East Coast, Clementi, Home.

I'm soooo tired of travelling.

Tomorrow's shopping for christmas day? I gotta change my school pants too. But the next size is really baggy, so I gotta alter it more. Ahhh so much money T_T.

Okay! I think I've blogged enough hehe. Seeu!

2008-12-13T02:39:00.002+08:00

Bixby Canyon.
(♥)

Hello, haven't been blogging in awhile. Anyway I thought I should take ownership of this, and stop being lazy! It's been 5 days since I've last blogged.

Anywho, I can't say much has happened. Been for bible study (finally) this week, campus explosion training today, and well... there's a slow improvement in my current condition of unwillingness to everything.

Attempted to do my QT today, but didn't manage to grasp anything. Idk but I'm just faithless.

Did some charity work today, packed 5 bagpacks with fullset schooling stationary equipments.
Oh dear, my life seems so boring ): Financial crisis which supposedly is affecting me. Arise & Build, so many events coming up. Near-to-daily activities, birthdays, going out with friends, I can't even save enough money by eating only one meal a day. I lost so much weight. It's like a norm, I don't even feel as if I'm on a diet or whatsoever.

Ahh, christmas is coming, gotta buy stuff for gift exchange, jamming this sunday. Can't wait for school to reopen x_x.

2008-12-08T10:34:00.002+08:00

Hello, I know I haven't been blogging. Honestly, I've been really moodless and tired these few days. It's like I just want to sleep at home and do nothing but rest. Anyway gonna try to do a few amendments here and there :D

1. Time of starting this?
10.36am

2. Are you named after anyone?
I don't think so.

3. Do you wish on stars?
Can hardly see any :/

.4. When did you last cry?
The hurt & emotional cry, like I can't remember.

5. What is your favourite meat?
Chicken/pork.

6. What is the most embarassing CD on your shelf?
Haha, what shelf.

7. If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
Maybe, like a twin? (:

8. Are you a daredevil?
Nuhh.

9. How do you release anger?
Rant rant rant.

10. Where is your second home?
Somewhere out there!

11. Do you trust others easily?
Sadly, yes.

12. What was your favourite toy as a child?
Oh dude I got so upset when my kindergarten teacher scammed me of my Lion King toy )':

13. What subject in school do you think is totally useless?
Chinese.

14. Do you use sarcasm alot?
To a certain extent :D

15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
Nooo ):

16. Get asked anything ridiculous lately?
Yes, in fact, so many ridiculous things.

17. What is the first thing you see in a person.
Bottom to the top!

[ sry there's two 17th ]

17. Would you bungee jump?
Yaa if I could.

18. Do you untie your shoelaces when you take your shoes off?
No hehe.

19. What's your favourite ice cream flavour?
Peppermint Chocolate / Butterscotch.

20. What are your favourite colours?
Red, Black, White, Navy!

21. What is your least favourite thing?
Problems.

22. What/Who do you miss most right now?
Someone out there?

What are you listening to right now?
OH YES MY SOUND WORKS AGAIN HAHAHA!

24. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
Red.

25. What is the weather like right now?
Drizzling and very cold ):

28. How are you today?
Feeling sick.

29. Favourite Drink?
Ice Milo.

30. Favourite alcoholic drink?
No favourites yet.

31. Natural hair colour?
Brown.

32. Eye colour?
Hazel.

33. Wear contacts?
Only when my glasses broke. Gosh, so troublesome.

34. Siblings?
Older sister (:

35. Favourite months?
February and December! Long story.

36. Favourite food?
I deserve... a MEGA MAC! No, not really. Idk.

37. Favourite day of the year?
Idk, my birthday I guess.

38. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out?
HMM. Not really. Or not anymore for that matter :D

39. Scary movies or happy endings?
A little of both.

40. Summer or winter?
WINTERRRRRRRRRRRR.

41. Do you regret ever breaking up with someone?
Every once in a while.

42. What book/magazine are you reading?
None, I think.

43. What's on your mouse pad?
A toothpick and my mouse. ._.

44. What did you watch on TV last night?
INTERNAL AFFAIRS (1 OR 2)!

45. Favourite smell?
Idk.

46. Define friendship. Hohoho, friendship is your relationship between your friend?

47. Which friend (s) is the closest to you?
Ben Tan!

48. What do you anticipate everyday?
More money.

49. Any cravings for food now?
Eating tuna sandwiches heh.

50. Who do you think is the hottest in your school?
Ehh idk.

51. Favourite words you like to use?
Eh, lor.

52. Favourite numbers?
6, 7.

Who do you wanna hug right now?
Awww.

54. If love potions are effective, will you make someone love you using love potions?
Yeah, win-win situation right?

tag 6 people to do the quiz.
ANYONE.

2008-12-04T10:14:00.004+08:00

Suite.
(♥)

OMG PANIC MODEEEE AAAAAA ): ): ):

Results have been released but JK is gonna help me check at 11 sooo I'm so nervous. Seriously I haven't felt this way in a long time. Omgoshhhhh. I don't know what to expect. I really don't ): I don't want to get screwed all over again ):

Seriously, I hate this!

[edit]

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I'M PROMOTED TO SEC 4.

No money to celebrate though >: Gaaah I need to top up my EZ-link card too. Pfff.

Oh yes, did I also mention that I lost 4kg? :D I'm now 64, used to be really close to 68. Haaaa, severe dieting works :D

2008-12-02T15:52:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow.
(♥)

Yay! I got my blogskin completed. Well more or less, it doesn't look that nice but it's still nice :D

I guess I'll be using this until christmas is over. Yup so I had to manually re-link everyone. If I miss you out please let me know and I'll fit you in okay? :D

Re-exams are now just part of my history, and it will stay that way. I no longer feel the pressure of failing, but it's growing into a fear right now ): Results will be released on thursday, and I am so uncertain of what is ahead of me.

But being myself, I can only look forward into the future and continue walking (:

It's also december already. I'd say it's my favourite month of the year :D It's truly the festive season and it's the month of my birthday (:
I better start making a wishlist hehe.

Anyway I feel like I've slackened off. A lot. I wonder what happened to that hunger.

ALSO, I'm starting to become anorexic. For a few days, I've only eaten dinner. Like nothing from the morning until the night. And I don't eat that much either. Well, since I'm too lazy to gym I might as well go on a diet.
Saturday was also the first time I have eaten lunch since Asia Conference :D

Last but not least, I need a haircut ):

2008-12-01T09:12:00.003+08:00

Redeyes.

(♥)

So lazy to blog. It's prolly gonna be dead if I continue feeling like this, lol. Anywho, went for church then jamming on sunday :D

Just... gonna post pictures. Lol.

[edit] Pfff, I'll widen my borders later.

Happy 18th Sarah!

2008-11-30T10:44:00.002+08:00

Ew, time is ticking like a time bomb ):

I can't fulfill my Arise & Build pledge this month. I need like 50 bucks more. Affff.

Christmas & Birthday is coming, I need to get a haircut, I wanna dye my hair, gotta help organize so much stuff (well not really a lot but it's something I haven't done before), and of course there's inevitable problems.

Gosh, I finally did my quiet time yesterday too. I hope everything turns out well today (:

Gotta run for church!

2008-11-28T11:44:00.000+08:00

Dope.
(♥)

Okay, I know I haven't been updating. Mmmm nothing much has been going on. Just gaming gaming and more gaming. Idk what else to do. I can't spend money ):

Yeah soo last night, I drank coffee at 1am. I don't know why I did that but it's ridiculously stupid. I was really hyper and couldn't sleep at all. Sooo I laid down on my bed and listened to music. After browsing through 796 songs, I was like that's it I have to sleep. Since it seemed pretty long, I thought it was only like 2am, since time passes really slowly when you're bored. I laid down, tossed and turned a little more, and then I told myself okay that's it I gotta check the time! Sooo I took a peek and it was 4.05am -.- I was like 'OMG.' Cause I was still really really awake. Thus, I forced myself to remain in one position, close my eyes and just daze off. Not sure when I actually accomplished this but I woke up at 9.25. Gosh.

Okay I'm hungry.

2008-11-25T01:44:00.004+08:00

2008-11-21T12:14:00.003+08:00

I can see the fire, spreading of Asia.
(♥)

Exams, adios. Freedom, here I come!

Amath paper was gooood. I managed to attempt all of the questions except two. Chinese, no comments. I went in there and asked the teacher if I could just go home now and take CLB next year. She was like just sit for the paper -.- And halfway through she told everyone that once we're done we can go. So I just rushed through my paper and went home an hour early LOL.

K, reached expo around 5.10+ to start queueing for Asia Conference. This was the most annoying part. It's worth it anyway!
So like we had to queue up for seats right? And all the typical kiasu singaporeans would always rush to be infront. So even if we reached early, those kiasu singaporeans will run to the next queueing spot, or even push here and there just to get closer to the front. Well same goes for the people at the back, who would just squeeze and push to the front. Queued for about an hour in the mass mob, sweating, sticky, and not being able to move a lot.
And so tells of an incident where this lady, who kept swinging her cardigan or whatever, which kept hitting me in my face. Grr so annoyed.

When we managed to get in, people still started pushing. There was even this group of girls who made a 'train' using their arms. So they cut from my left to my right, and all 6 or 7 of them were blocking the whole damn pathway. But yeah, when we settled down there was this Braniest Family competition. The second family were totally awesome. Seriously they got all the questions correct, which was amazing. Questions including General Knowledge, Bible verses which you had to recite, but only one person saying one word at a time. Punctuations were included lol. And of course bible knowledge too. Sooo they won a total of $2000 :D Grats.

Okay! Then the session started! Sang familiar songs from True Worshippers, songs from Don Moen (did I get his name right). What was really exciting was when Carola came on and started singing. Just then, Dr Ulf Ekman came on with such fire everyone was so high in spirits! It was his last night here, so I guessed he wanted to make this night spectacular, and he did! The presence of God was so strong I actually teared. I don't usually do this, not this way. Waaaah, Asia Conference was a bomb.

Then at the end, Dr Ulf laid hands on all the pastors, but all the people also rushed forward to get laid hands. I only heard him calling out to the pastors to come in front but I don't know why the people went infront too. Well yeah, that took a really long time lol. By the time we were done it's already 11. Everyone rushed out of the hall to go home. When we reached the train stations there was only a train service to Tanah Merah and it'll terminate there ): Everyone started squeezing like crazy, to get through the gate. Thankfully, they opened the other gates so it was more spread out lol. I'm suprised my carriage didn't have a lot of people. Anyway took a bus back to clementi and by the time I reached it was already 1am T_T. Mum picked me up sent Ben Tan home and went to buy my Mega McSpicy! Honestly, it sucks. The chicken is so dry, and they should really put another layer of sauce between the two patties.

Okay I'm tired of blogging lol, 3 more days of Asia Conference. Can't tank the queueing ):

Tagged by Yi Chong (Sorry I only noticed that post yesterday lol) :

1 ) The last person who tagged you is : Yi Chong.

2 ) Your relationship with him / her is : Classmates.

3 ) Your impressions on him / her is : Very Vulgar. (Omg alliteration).

4 ) The most memorable thing he / she had done for you : Ermmm... ironically I can't remember LOL.

5 ) The most memorable thing he / she said to you : ****

6 ) if he / she becomes your lover you will : Keep my distance LOL.

7 ) If he / she becomes your lover, a thing he / she has to improve on will be : Self-control!

8 ) if he / she becomes your enemy , the reason will be : Ehh, clash of vulgarities?

9 ) the most desired thing you wanna do for him / her now is : Complete this quiz.

10 ) your overall impression on him / her is : Vulgar.

11 ) how you think people around you feel about you : Cool? Idk.

12 ) the character you love about yourself is : Cheerful? :D Well somtimes.

13 ) on the contrary , the character you hate about yourself is: Childish ):

14 ) the most ideal person you wanna be is : Jesus.

15 ) pass this quiz to 6 people that you wish to know how they feel about you (All of them don't have blogs LOLOL.) :

1. Ben Tan

2. Jia Jun

3. Ruey Jer

4. Max

5. Gerald

6. Seb Chu

16 ) who is no.6 having a relationship with? No one.

17 ) what is no.2 studying about? Erm, A levels? :D

18 ) when was the last time you had a chat with no.3? Last friday ):

19 ) Does no.1 have any siblings ? A sister.

20 ) will you woo no.3? Uhhh, well he's one of my best friends haha.

21 ) whats the surname of no.5? Oh dude I forgot I'm so sorry D:

22 ) whats the hobby of no.4? CS?

23 ) where is no.2 studying at? He has no school :p

24 ) talk something casually about no.1? Haha! We talk about almost anything.

25 ) what colour does no.4 like? Orange!

26 ) are no.1 and 5 best friends? Oh, no.

27 ) how did you get to know no.2? Secondary 3.06 Hosea.

28 ) does no.1 have any pets? Haha nope.

WoW time!

2008-11-18T20:00:00.003+08:00

Our time has come.
(♥)

Physics paper is fine. Kinematics is just so cunning I keep making that careless mistake ): After realising that I did, I started panicking sooo badly. So paranoid ): But yesss, what's done is done. Amath & Chinese is on thursday.

Have been doing so much trigo identities my brain starts to hurt. I don't know, but I just can't master it. Too hard ):

Asia Conference starts tomorrow! But I won't be able to go since my paper is in the morning/afternoon :/ I'll be down on thursday onwards though.

You're in my heart,
You're in my soul
You are my heaven,
You're my home
You're my best friend,
You're my true love
You are my treasure,
You're my God.

Can't wait for Asia Conference.
Pictures, Breakthroughs, Miracles, A whole lot of fun, Fool for Christ.

See you at Asia Conference :)

2008-11-16T09:21:00.003+08:00

Too much for tonight.
(♥)

Omg yes I'm on the comp again but it's just to try to fix ipod okay.
Omg so my ipod can't be restored.
Omg I didn't buy anything for Asia Conference.
Omg I haven't fulfilled my Arise & Build pledge.
Omg exams tomorrow T_T.
Omg I felt like I was talking to myself during quiet time.
Omggggggosh.

2008-11-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

Let's skip the opening lines shall we? It's getting late and I plan on studying early in the morning.

Anyway yesss so went over the Ruey Jer's place in the afternoon to play basketball. Was sooo energyless T_T After all I only ate 6 oreo biscuits. Headed for cell group after that with Ben Tan. Ate Old Chang Kee, and walked around in Novena Square/Velocity, finding out that there are many things which are pretty attractive. Heh, so yeah cell group was good I'd say. Maybe it's cause I haven't been to cg for 2 weeks, but idk I think it's just cause I longed for this presence so much. Feeling really empowered, and many many personal experiences occured to me imo.

Also celebrated Yu Jie's birthday today with a cake! The name of the cake was Chocolate Heaven, and it was heavenly. Awesomely nice okay. Yupp and so have fun in Taiwan Ruey Jer! I'm afraid I can't send you off at the airport ):

Okay announcements:

- Strict hiatus. Not going to touch the computer until Thursday when my re-exams are over. I really plan on accomplishing this, so nobody can ever make me waste time on the computer for these few days! Well unless it's important, I shall not touch it. Not even for a break.

- Asia Conference. Really really big event, I would urge all my readers to come for it. 19-23rd november. Just be available on any of these days and I can accompany you to one of the sessions, prolly in the night. For more information, here is a link to your convenience: http://www.asiaconference.org.sg/index.php and just inform me if you want to come okay? Well, just trying my luck (:

Yup that's about it. Feels like I've forgotten something but oh well, what can I about it if I've already forgotten, and unable to remember? ):

Shopping for Asia Conference tomorrow! Omgosh I NEED some good buys. Gonna wake up early and start mugging too. Have a nice day :)

2008-11-13T19:34:00.002+08:00

If you started yesterday, you're already too late.
(♥)

Hello, fourth day of fasting. Feels terrible. My perseverance level is so low, I feel so tempted to just quit fasting, and start eating like a pig. You can say conc camp made me fat ): I eat like 4 meals a day, and it's not little meals but the normal meals. Even diarrhea for a week couldn't help me lose any weight.

Been working in my mum's shop for allowance. Yes, I don't get pocket money right now. I have to work in order to get it, and I've yet to buy clothes for Asia Conference, and not forgetting fulfill my Arise & Build pledge. Helped her do the basic stuff for the dogs which include bathing, blow drying, brushing, cleaning their ears, and alternatively helping her with hyperactive and rebellious dogs.
I'd rather stay home and catch up on sleep, study and play WoW, but I have to get those stuff. I have to fulfill my Arise & Build pledge!! Arghh.

Anyway so at the shop today, I did my job pretty well, and I got a 100% bonus as a reward :D I mean I had to brush a poodle, such that their fur will not be curly else it'll be pretty hard to cut their fur. In fact, I had to brush two. It takes so much time I spent like 40 minutes on this really big and fat poodle. Gaaah, that's 50 dollars in savings, now I need 40 more -.-

So there is one problem with my fasting. I'm not praying. Yes, as straightforward as it is. I can't discipline myself enough to pray. I only pray when (saying grace is not counted): Before I study, before I break fast, before I sleep. I really really need to get back on the right path. Like what Pastor said, dieting is just like fasting, without the spiritual aspect of it. Right now it seems like I'm on a diet instead of a fast. This is so crude ):

Oh well, cell group tomorrow (finally!) - prayer meeting. Looking forward to that :D

Omg someone buy the WoW expansion for me T_T. I want a death knight aaahhhh.

2008-11-12T11:00:00.002+08:00

In season, out reason.

(♥)

I just realised my blog posts have been flooded with words words and words ): I shall do a quiz to amplify it.

Warning: Long quiz.

How many keys on your large collection of keyrings?
Two :p

What curse word do you use the most?
****,$#@^,!#^*% and not forgetting $^#$*#$.

Do you own an iPod?
Yesss, thanks to Jia Jun :D

What time is your alarm clock set for?
6.00am, 6.30am, 7.00am, 8.00am and 10.00am.

How many suitcases do you own?
None!

Do you wear flip–flops even when it's cold outside?
It's hardly ever cold outside ):

Where do you buy your groceries from?
NTUC Fairprice?

Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
BE IN ONE.

What was the last movie you watched?
Sex and The City.

Do any of your friends have children?
Why of course.

If you won the lottery, what's the first thing you would buy?
Tithe, then go on a shopping spreee!

Has anyone ever called you lazy?
It's a norm.

Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster?
Never need to lol.

What CD is currently in your CD player?
Warcraft III : The Frozen Throne.

Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
Chocolate!

Has anyone told you a secret this week?
Not really ):

When was the last time someone hit on you?
Oh wow, I'm so bad at hints.

What did you have for dinner?
Porridge, some vegetable and minced meat.

Do you wear hoodies often?
Nah, not anymore.

Can you whistle?
Yes.

Have you ever participated in a protest?
Who dares to right now in Singapore.

Who was the last person to call you?
Jia Zheng lol.

What is your favourite ride at an amusement park?
Only been to one and that was like 4 years old, so I can't remember anything ):

Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
Obviously.

What area code are you in right now?
What.

Did you watch cartoons as a child?
Yes and I still do.

How big is your local mall?
Local? The local-est would be Jurong Point.

How many siblings do you have?
1.

Are you shy around the opposite sex?
Ha, not really anymore.

What is your biggest regret?
Not worth remembering.

When was the last time you laughed so hard your sides hurt?
On internet, lol.

What movie do you know every line to?
Don't watch movies anymore ):

Do you own any band t–shirts?
Haha, no.

When was your last plane ride?
Wow I don't remember. Bali OEP last year?

How many chairs are at your dining room table?
5.

Do you read for fun?
No lol.

Can you speak any languages other than English?
Chinese!

Do you do your own dishes?
Hahaha, tough luck.

What colour is your bedroom painted?
Blue.

Have you ever cried in public?
Yeah.

Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop?
Desktop, pfft ):

Which do you make, wishes or plans?
They're on equilibrium.

Are you always trying to learn new things?
Not really, I'm lazy.

Do you shower on a daily basis?
Definitely.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
No, no money ):

Do you believe that the guy should pay on the first date?
Well, yeah.

Can you skip rocks?
YES HAHA.

Have you ever been to Jamaica?
No ):

What to snack on at the movie theatres?
Popcorn/Nachos? What else is there?!!

Who was your favourite teacher?
Mr Lim Eng Kong/Ms Salinah!

Have you ever dated someone out of your race?
Uhh, no lol.

What is the weather like?
HOT.

Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos?
No, not really.

Do you have an online journal?
My blog is one :)

What was your favourite class in high school?
Secondary school - None.

Do you enjoy travelling via airplanes?
If only I could ):

What personality trait is a must–have in your preferred gender?
Thoughtful?

Have you ever been attracted to someone physically unattractive?
HM. Yes.

When was the last time you slept on the floor?
Somewhere at the beginning of this year.

What is your favourite alcoholic drink?
Aye, idk.

Does your closest Starbucks have a drive–thru?
Heh, nope.

Do you like your living arrangement?
No. I strongly dislike it.

What is your mother's hometown?
Singapore?

How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
I can function, but not for long.

Do you eat breakfast daily?
Not really lol.

What was the last thing to scare you?
The movie Mirrors.

Are your days full and fast–paced?
Nupe.

Did you ever get in trouble for talking in class?
Yeah wth ):

What is your favourite fruit?
Watermelon.

Do you pay attention to calories on the back of packages?
No UNLIKE YI CHONG.

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
16!

Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
Pretty much LOL.

Do you believe in life on other planets?
E.T go hooome.

Have you ever been to Six Flags?
Aww I haven't even been to One ):

Who was the last person to piss you off?
Mum.

Do you believe that God has a gender?
God is too magnificent.

What was the last thing you ate?
Oreos! <3>

Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex?
Eh, same. I've lived my whole school life with boys sooo yeah lol.

What did you dress up as for your first Halloween?
Never did.

How did your parents pick your name?
I was supposed to be named Ryan. But my dad couldn't pronounce it properly ): Oh well, Ben has brought me much destiny too (:

Do you like mustard?
Yeha.

What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
Like now? Dude this quiz is so long T_T

Would you ever sky dive?
If I could.

Do you sleep on your side, tummy, or back?
Back, then side, and finally tummy.

What character from a movie most reminds you of yourself?
Hoho, none sorry.

Have you ever bid for something on ebay?
Nope.

What do you think of Angelina Jolie being pregnant?
So what.

Do you enjoy giving hugs?
Yes.

Would you consider yourself to be fashionable?
Yes, for my age :D

Do you own a digital camera?
Used to!

If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?
Ah, cool lol.

What celebrities have you been compared to?
Noone.

Who is your favourite Star Wars character
Draeneis remind me of starwars lol. Would be Darth Maul.

Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but never do?
Not really.

What books, if any, have made you cry?
P.S. I love you.

Do you think you're attractive?
Heh, what do you think.

What are you allergic to?
Many many things.

Are you a jealous person?
Yeah.

What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment?
Sex? That word comes out of peoples' mouth like saliva.

Do you ever feel guilty after eating meat?
Neveerrrr.

If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name have been?
Oh wow, don't ask me LOL.

Should be good enough to make an uber long post :D

Unglam moments, hehe.

2008-11-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

Dee.
(♥)

Fasting today kinda failed, lol.
Woke up at like 1+? Didn't have breakfast, so I was terribly hungry. Well I did manage to survive on 2 pieces of biscuit and that's it. Plan to wake up at 7+ and go for breakfast at 8 tomorrow morning :)

Pretty much studied and played my way through today, gonna work for my mum since I spent way too much money over the weekends. Gaah, I need money before Asia Conference ):

ALSO, looking for a job. Like a good job, just for awhile. Anyone has any good recommendations?

2008-11-09T17:53:00.003+08:00

Shine, my fear.
(♥)

Saturday:

Went for dental, changed to baby blue :) Kinda new to me, but yeah I like it still. Went over to Ben Tan's place to gym, swim and get a tan! Gyming completed, swimming well sort of, tanning was a total failure for me. There was cloudy sun, but I still got sunburned. Sucks so bad ):
Headed to town to check out what's new and happening and whatever there is to see (:

First we headed to Far East Plaza, and felt so out of place :/ Sooo went to Paragon. No idea what we did there but it got boring. Since we wanted to find cheap clothes, we tried Heeren! But as usual we didn't see anything we fancied, and headed to Taka! Was sooo crowded, such a turn off >:

Anyway I have no idea what we did, but by the time we were looking for a place to rest, it was getting late. Went to the Esprit and Zara at wheelock to start experimenting with clothes since it was empty, and we took a few pics (:

Don't have the pics right now, but will sure get them soon lol.Thinking of buying a checkered shirt for Asia Conference. If you're wondering about those grey shoes I've longed for in Zara, well the thoughts are further postponed. Well you see, Asia Conference is from the 19th-23rd November, and since I'm most likely going for all the days, I need shirts to wear! I'll need 5 pairs of shirts, and yeah time to buy shirts T_T Iunno, I might still buy the shoes, since it's much cheaper than the shirts, but I'll see. I won't be wearing the shoes to Asia Conference anyway, since I don't have a grey belt YET. That's why I said see how first right (:? If I can get a grey belt then yeaaah.

Reached starbucks just beside Forum, and we sat there talking from like 9-11.40? Man, it was so awesome. I've not spoken to anyone like this, well not in a loooong time. We talked about almost anything, even christmas! They were playing christmas carols too, so the ambience was really really calm and relaxing. Oh, I can imagine christmas with friends (: Which reminds me, a scarf for this christmas is on my to-buy list too! I'll need to start working, bleh. Prolly gonna try with my mum first, if not I might just work with you, Ben. Idk, I want a good lobang. Hehe.

K sooo, we walked to my place from Clementi, which took us like around an hour I assume? Was sooo tired, and I only slept at like 3 plus. Had to wake up at 6 for morning prayer meeting, and I was pretty late cause I thought bus 30 reaches Boon Lay MRT in 10-20 minutes but it took waaaay longer than that.

Prayer meeting wasn't that good to me, couldn't even feel anything at all. I guess conc camp made me "stoneskined" ): Went to JP for breakfast, and then followed Aaron to get coffee for the leaders and pastor, and a cake for the november babies :) So tired please, I kept falling asleep U_U

Service imo was good at first part, until I got really tired. Then, nothing went into my head and all I was trying to accomplish is to stay awake. Well I did that, but still so tired T_T.

Yeah and, I'm still tired. Amazingly, the guest speaker today said that he will get us to love mondays as much as we love sundays. Suprisingly, I am soo thankful that tomorrow is monday, cause I can sleep in. Wow, I love mondays.

Okaaaaay so tired byee.

2008-11-07T20:55:00.003+08:00

Run away.
(♥)

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY conc camp is over omg. Like finally, I don't have to wake up at 6.30am until re-exams which start on 17th november. Wooo :)

Okay, so after going through sec 3 conc camp twice, I should make a survival guide book. First MUST HAVE in the book would be friends. Conc camp wouldn't be great without friends, therefore I would like to give special thanks to all my friends, and new friends whom I have studied/played sports with :)

Ahh, so after "graduating from conc camp" as Mr Lim Eng Kong puts it, I feel that this year's conc camp is much more productive. Not cause the things have changed, but I actually paid attention. During amath, Mrs Lee Chia Hui even wrote "excellent" on my 'comment' section on the monitoring form! Like waaaa, after going through so many scoldings I finally get a praise from a teacher.

Soooo yes, I'm looking forward to:

1. Trying to study! I still need help in trigo identities :/
2. More time spent in ministry.
3. Plaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

K, ilu all bb.

P.S. Ben Tan! Time to catch up! Gotta go shopping soon before Asia conference T_T.

2008-11-07T00:18:00.003+08:00

I'm filled to be emptied again.
(♥)

Second last day (:

So here's how it went.

Amath

Lol, remainder and factor theorem, pretty easy :D Didn't have much trouble with it, so yay.

Physics

Lenses, eaaaasyyyyy. Though I don't know how to solve the hard question in the final year paper ):

Self study

I completed the given amath worksheet, and yess I did ask the teacher for help in 2 questions, but i attempted and got correct for the rest! Time well spent :)

Exercise

Lol, played polo with like 9 other people. Idk, I believe I played rough. It just gets to me - too much studying = no balance of violence. Hahaha, so yeah they said I had like 1000 health and 200 damage per hit etc etc. just cause my arms are long so no one can pretty much touch me except Joel :p My team still lost anyway ): But it's okay, another chance tomorrow hehe.

Night lessons

Zomg, here's the hard part. Mr Keith Tan bombarded us with another worksheet on remainder factor theorem, and it's like friggin' hard. Though I have to say, I participated in the class a lot :D I even solved this part of a question when nobody could, or well close enough. Heh, I feel so accomplished :D

So right now my brain is really really dead, I have to sleep ): BUT before I do that, I need to rant.

This particular teacher. I respect him a lot, but that doesn't mean he can swing his authority everywhere. Wait, he even does it to those who don't respect him. K so like I was late today right? And I didn't go to school yesterday cause I was recovering from a fever right? And I didn't have a MC cause I was well enough not to go to a doctor right? Make sense? Yeah, so he was scolding me, saying things like "You better change your attitude.", "Watch your character." etc. There were a few more phrases but I couldn't be bothered listening, cause it's like I don't even make any noise in class, and he's just so strict cause I'm retained? I mean wth ):

Okay I have to sleeeeeeeeeep.

2008-11-05T11:32:00.004+08:00

How great is our God.
(♥)

In the midst of a fever attack. Recovering super fast though. It's almost gone in less than 24 hours. But I promise I really had a fever ):

During study time I was having a bad headache. Asked my mum if I could take a green form (mc kinda thing) and go home, she said no. Just take a panadol and rest. I asked my teacher if I could get a green form and go home, he said go to the nurse and take a panadol. I went to the nurse and it was closed -.-

Oh well, played basketball with the teachers, 4 on 4. I went to teachers' side since I had a feverrr. We supposedly 'trashed' the other team cause... I'd say it was unbalanced lol. Anyway, felt soo terrible during night classes. And it was so dark, yet I had to go to the toilet myself. So poor thing k ):

Anyway sooo, yeah I'm taking a day's off. Hopefully I'll be good enough to go to school tomorrow :)

Raaaar need earrings.

P.S. I lost weight :):):):)

2008-11-02T11:37:00.002+08:00

Is a broken virgin still a virgin?
(♥)

Lethargic. Exhausted. Grouchy. Messy. Lazy. Tired.

I guess that pretty much sums up how I'm feeling right now. Didn't have a good sleep, and I woke up pretty early like 8 plus? And my mum starting nagging when she woke up, and I believe the people who know me would also know that the worst time of the day for me, would be in the morning. I could get pissed at the slightest things. Oh well, night owls club :D

Didn't go for service today, and in doing so I just realised that this is the first sunday service I have missed in a few months. Prolly like more than half a year or so? Lol, anyway a more elaborated post on yesterday's service. I went there, and there was this sense of security. No, not because there are many security guards there but it felt like going back home. Everything's at peace and I have no room for any sense of awkwardness whatsoever.

Anyway yeah, gotta go study. :D

2008-11-01T09:47:00.004+08:00

Don't look up
Just let them think
There's no place else
You'd rather be.
(♥)

Freedom! x) The last day of conc camp for the week passed really quickly! Thank God <3>_> pfft.

Yaa then self study was such a waste of time. The people who failed chemistry got divided from those who didn't. The chemistry bunch had to sit in another spot and do this chem worksheet, with the help of 2 volunteers from NUS and the teacher. Apparently, I've dropped chem. But still I was sitting with the chemistry people, attempting the worksheet, and even completing it lol. The NUS dudes came to 'help' me in my question, and I was kinda happy that I managed to solve it and stuff. But then I kept asking myself "Why on earth am I doing chemistryyy?!?!!" Bleh, so the whole self-study period was very slack, and by 4pm everyone was walking around doing their own stuff lol.

Basketball was so-so, rigged teams. The people started calling me china china china china. Arrr whatever. I made friends with a chinaman too! His name is Yao Yi ahaha. His chinese isn't that good, suprisingly. I don't know if he was acting, but he actually used english words to sub in the chinese words which he didn't know how to say LOL. Oh well, he's a nice guy :D

Prep time was freeee perioooood so I had self study. K this time I really really studied physics and it was so cold x_x. Time passes really quickly when you're engrossed in your work lol. Anywho, halloween is over, so is conc camp for the week. Ahhh, I love the weekends :D

Church service later! Should I go for sunday's too? :/

[edit]

Gaaah, pledged $200 more than what I initially thought of pledging. I guess God gave me sum, finally. Oh well, everything's cool :D Just that the grey shoe I wanted to buy is something I can only dream of right now >_> I'm back to $10 in savings aaaa.

2008-10-30T22:55:00.002+08:00

'Cause everything's in a cycle.
(♥)

Okay, another day of conc camp has passed, more enjoyable than yesterday. Sooo during my free holding room period, Darren Tay (who is really really mentally wrong) sat beside me. He took this umbrella which was opened, and did many many silly things. I remember this one part where the inverted it, and said "It's a rose. It's a beautiful rose. Waaaa, cooool." or something like that :/ I wasn't mean to like chase him away so I... just agreed with him in whatever he did. Heh, except that part where he wanted to give that "rose" to me :p

He reminded me of Pastor Kong's message on innocence not being a virtue and stuff. Darren Tay is weeeeird :/

And then came Self-Study Period which is always from 2pm to 4.45pm. Today was suprising. I didn't sleep or feel sleepy at all. I just concentrated on Pressure, Physics. I managed to understand that topic and I can say I have more or less accomplished it :D Hence, from 2 to 3.30 I was more or less fully concentrated. By 4 I was distracted and started day dreaming but slowly got back on track. Yay for physics k.

Exercise period! Goshh, I went to play basketball as usual, but this time not many people went to play so we only managed to get half a court. 3 on 4, it was pretty imbalanced since all the better players were the 3, and the other 4 just massed swarmed us. No one from my team could shoot, so we were running like little idiots trying to lay up :/ Anyway a friend came in later and it turned into a 4 v 4, remaking the teams and leaving me as the only person who knows how to actually play basketball properly ): My teammates called me a china scholar, which is like WTFFFFFFFF. SINCE WHEN DID I BECOME A CHINA SCHOLAR?!?!! And it was SOOO tiring okay. Once they got the ball, the first thing they do is look at me, to see if I'm open or not -.- I mean like doood you're right under the net just shoot kay >_>. Ahh whatever, some people say I look like an ang moh/eurasian thingy. Hahaha.

Night lesson was Amath, and we had Mr Gabriel Phee. He really is much nicer post-school :D Anywho, we did trigo curves. I managed to sketch graphs okay! I feel so accomplished :D I can finally have a good nights rest muahahhaa.

Okay I'm tired, last day of conc camp for the week, tomorrow. Wooooooooooooooooooooooo.

2008-10-29T22:46:00.003+08:00

You're my key to survival.
(♥)

2nd day of conc camp in the 2nd week. 6 more days to go >_>

Camp has been getting better and better, and time seems to be passing faster each day. Classes start to get more fun with everyone slacked, self study time becomes a play time when the teachers are lenient, exercise time is productive especially since it's basketball (hehehe), and night classes and just wacked.

In the morning I look forward to recess, and after that I look forward to lunch, followed by exercise, then supper. It's not that bad after all, really. Only thing is that it's so straining on my eyes :/ My eyes are sooo tired which naturally makes my whole body feel tired.

Amath is just wicked. Everyone consist of a graph, and the prep time today was a total waste of time. Though I got 'all correct' according to the teacher :p

And I bought a Happy Meal for the first time in... a few years! Life is amusingg aaaa.

So this friday is Halloween, and I'm gonna be stuck in conc camp. There won't be anything special happening too, unfortunately. Seriously, thinking about it again, time passes so slowly T_T.

On a serious note. I don't feel so spritual anymore. I've lost this feeling and everything's just getting crude. I should start fasting next week lol.

Anywho, I'm tired. Not to mention the WoW craze which is unwillingly concealed at the back of my mind ):

2008-10-27T13:22:00.012+08:00

We mark our own to occupy.

(♥)

Nooo, conc camp starts tomorrow. And it's 4 days in a row T_T. Ah, whatever. I will pass my re-exams.

Went for jamming on saturday since Aaron and Yujie kindly allowed me to :) It was so-so, gotta make some amendments to fully maximum the time we have. We can't just go there and pick the songs, but be more organized etc etc. This week's service wasn't that much of preaching, but more of us picking up the City Harvest DNA, which Seb Chu really felt it was a good word for the new friends hehe.

On Sunday, I had to sit in the midst of the new friends T_T. Omg so uncomfortable since they're unresponsive and when we had to turn to our neighbours to say stuff, they don't at all. But I still did it unreluctantly anyway :)

Hot Dog Party at the rooftop straight after service! Congrats to Kenneth for eating the most in the competition hahaha.

Went home feeling tired, so I slept at 8. Yeah, and I slept for like 12 hours. Ahhh, my eyebags feel smaller :D

Anyway photos on facebook. Can't put it here since they're so big lol.

[edit]

Went to town with my mum cause she wanted to visit Borders and get some books soooo... yeah. I can say I had fun, and I'm sure she did too! It's been awhile since we joked so much heh. I even booked her for Asia Conference :D She agreed to come on one of the days, yaaay!

All in all, dreading conc camp tomorrow T_T.

2008-10-24T23:05:00.003+08:00

Are we waiting for something?
(♥)

1st day of conc camp, over. Oh my gosh it was so boring. Last year's was so much fun. No offence to the teachers who are in-charge of conc camp this year, but Mr Lim Eng Kong did a better job at it :/ Gaaah anyway mastered like 90% of kinematics, linear law is still a partial-mystery.

Sooo in the morning I had a bet with JK. I was like "I bet you lunch will be chicken." And it was :D Aaahhh, experienced :)

I'm tired, gonna cut this short.

Jamming session tomorrow, can't wait! Every monday of conc camp is off due to Deepavali and Staff Retreat. Thus, only 8 more days left.

Okaybye :D

2008-10-23T12:44:00.003+08:00

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me.
(♥)

Dreams, the only thing which is able to give me the sense of satisfaction. There is no limit to what I can dream of, and it is always unpredictable. I can dream of romance for a day or two, and action and adventure for the next few. It is my fantasy land where wishes do indeed, come true.

On an early thursday morning, I awoke to the bright morning sun. Soaring high up in the open sky like a ball of hope, never letting us down, always punctual in doing its job. It suddenly came to my senses that I had a dream. Just then, a wide smile slowly appeared on my face. "What a wonderful dream," I thought. Many of the times, I would not even recall what I have just dreamt of a few seconds ago. When I eventually do, there is nothing more I want than to go back into my "fantasy land". I would do everything possible, to go back into that dream, to relive that heart-warming moment. But very often, I would end up in another dream. It may be another wonderful dream itself, but due to my stubborn-ness, all I want is THAT dream.

No, it is not a dirty dream, or anything with the dirty context for that matter. But still, it is something which I wouldn't dare reveal to the world, in fear of embarrassment and criticism. All I can say that it was something I had always wanted. In reality, it seems impossible, and even talking about it would get me in the spotlight for the wrong things. Funny thing is, it seemed to be a few years back since I last had that thought, or anything close to that. I guess I had always kept in at the back of my mind to 'bury' it. Strangely, it does get buried well. When I try to 'find' it again, I can't. Just so happens that this dream made me relived the moment.

Many say that dreams happen when your mind is tidying up your memories, others say that dreams are a sign. Well I say that I'd rather sleep forever.

Man, I got side tracked so much that I had to retype it so many times T_T. Anyway, last CG for a month :/ Prayer meeting todaaay. I'm not feeling that dry anymore too :D

2008-10-22T15:09:00.004+08:00

The ice is getting thinner.

(♥)

Finally, changed to a blogskin which I think is not too bad. Everything seems to be suitable so, please comment (:

Either my sound card is loose/broken, or my speakers are spoilt. But my speakers work perfectly fine D: It's like whenever I start up my computer, everything works fine... until like 5 minutes? And there's suddenly no sound. I can't live without sound ):

Anyway these few days have been totally wrong. Everything is really wrong. I come to school and I only do one thing - play chinese chess. That's the most interesting thing I can go in school already. Secondly there are so many problems coming up. Some of which I have no solution to. Thirdly, I feel so damn tired and I know that even if I were to die right now, I'd be happier than if I were to continue living. Everybody's expectations are so different. Gaaah, I don't know. Quiet time seems so liveless, I don't even know if I can believe for a breakthrough anymore. I stay awake, only finding that I can't even focus on God but my mind drifts away into every other possible problem. I don't know, the fire's dying out.

I guess I'll put everything on hold, kind of moodless to go for jamming this saturday, if I can even go that is. Service would be a necessasity, and so is cell group. But my mum won't even let me go for cell group anyway.

Bleh, looking on the bright side, I improved in chinese chess :) I remember the times when I used to lose to my sister like 5 times in a row. But at least I'm able to win a couple of matches, or almost win for that matter :D

Whatever it is, I don't know where I stand right now. Someone tell me please.

Even when everything seems to be failing, don't give up.

2008-10-20T15:53:00.003+08:00

I wanna stay here with you.
(♥)

BEN DID NOT FAIL EMATH AFTER ALL HAHAHA.

There is still hope.

2008-10-19T10:09:00.003+08:00

Update on yesterday. Service was gooooood.

We had to visualize on the things we wanted, and applied E=mcsquared. Power = Mass of the people x consciousness of the mind squared. Theeen we all prayed for whatever we wanted, and we all visualized it, focused on it. Expecting greatings thing to come :D

Had dinner with Bush and Ben Tan last night, and I ate Nasi Lemak right. The curry sauce there stained my braces chain which was originally white. So now it's lime-yellow LOLOL. When I reached home I was like 'WHAT THE.' But yeah, got used to it. Sore throat, a build-up on mucus... I'm falling sick ):

Anyway, I think I'm burning out too. Bleh, it's okay. It'll work out somehow :D

Service 4 in an hour and a half! Will update later :D

Okaaaaay, I got sort of 'confined/quarantined' by Yu Jie heh. Have to study, can't go shopping anymore. Blehhh. It's time to get my life straight. Really, it was sort of a wake up call. It made me realize that I don't have anything which I should be proud of actually.

Sigh, gonna go meditate ):

2008-10-18T12:58:00.004+08:00

I hear whispers in your head.
(♥)

Hey :p Didn't update yesterday cause I was too lazy. Anywho, here's what happened yesterday.

Went gyming with the usuals before cell group :D Not very productive though, I didn't even have any strength to gym thus, no muscle grown. Then took train to Novena to meet up with a few people. I haven't taken this line for such a long time! Jurong East Towards Woodlands, that line. I remember the last time I took it was for training, which was in May. Hehe, anyway cell group could have been better. Games was good (Nice one Zac :D), Praise and Worship could have been improved much more, word was pretty good, ministry could have been improved, aaaand refreshments were pretty good :D

Left the place at 11? Thankfully I caught the last bus home hehe. Theeeen played dota with the guys. Omgosh I haven't played this in such a long time lol. Well I wasn't THAT noobish, we still won afterall :D

Prayer meeting and service todaaay. Sigh, still searching something which I need.

2008-10-16T15:43:00.003+08:00

A lifetime I've waited for.
(♥)

I predict many people will come being nosey, looking for any clues and tips on my exams results :D

Started the day off with a House Meeting. My name got special mentioned by Mrs Lee Chia Hui as a 'really good swimmer' hahahaha. Which also brings me to remembrance of my last training session - somewhere in May :p No idea if I'm gonna continue swimming or if I should just stop. Seems like I would be leading a better life WITHOUT going for training, since there would be lesser stress, worries, troubles and travelling.

Collected our results after the meeting, and I don't know if I should be happy or not. I improved in all my subjects by quite a bit. No more F9s! Then again, I don't know if this is my 'reward' from God. Being happy and optimistic about my results and all lol. Whatever it is, thank you :)

OKAY, so conc camp for me n_n. Total of 10 people from my class who did not meet the promotion criteria. However they didn't stress about the 'ONE LAST CHANCE' part of conc camp as much as last year. This year's batch of students seem smarter anyway lol. I'm looking forward and dreading conc camp both at the same time :/ I mean yessss, I can smell year 4s right infront of me, but there's the hole of work which I have to climb through, before getting to year 4. Honestly, I'm really lost.

I was recommended to drop chem, and YE I WILL. But I'll only have physics which seems to be scoring higher. Funny, I dropped physics last year lol. I ALSO want to take CLB, but I'm not sure if I'm allowed to. After all, it's not like I'm getting F9s for my chinese. Bleh, sucks to be stuck in the middle of nowhere.

Yeah so, during our break, I was drawing stuff on the whiteboard. I drew a frog and it was pretty cartoonish-cute :D THEN, we decided to draw walruses and nobody was sure how to draw the body of a walrus. Then along came Malcolm, trying to... I don't know. Mock us, convince us that it isn't him, or maybe try to discourage us from drawing walruses? He couldn't take it after awhile and started erasing everything we drew. EVEN IF IT WASN'T ABOUT WALRUSES LOL. Yeah, till the extent where I had to confiscate the duster from him, and he tried to grab the marker from me. No idea what he was doing, really.

I think he was trying to stop us from drawing anymore. But like duhh, he couldn't take it from me lol. I seriously wasn't doing anything. He was the one trying to force the marker out of my hands, while I just grabbed on it. One of his hands grabbed my wrist (....?) and the other tried to get the marker so I grabbed HIS wrist and refrained it from getting any inch closer. I even showed Ivandy I wasn't doing anything. It's like he's just struggling while I'm not doing anything at all. Like no effort done k. Anyway soooo, he started twisting stuff here and there, grabbing my shirt. With the one and only motive of attaining the oh-so destructive marker which he deemed so important as his life. With all his might, power and motivation, he reached for the marker even though it was towering high up above him while comfortably resting in my hands. He tugged and pull, determined to overcome this obstacle, but to no avail. (Aww anti-climax.)

Seriously, he started arguing with me. Demanding me to stop drawing and I was like 'Why? This is a free world. Can't I draw?' And he replied spontaneously with answers such as 'But you keep drawing stupid things.' and 'You're making fun of me.' Certainly, I replied with 'But I didn't say it was you, UNLESS you feel guilty about it.', 'And who are you to command me? Are you my parents? Do I owe anything to you?.' stuff like that. Well, he couldn't get it back from me so he just vented his anger by reading his comics ): And playing chess LOL.

What a weirdo, but seriously. I had no intention of making fun of him. I'm sorry if I drew a frog and my classmates labelled it Stephen the Frog, and I drew a walrus and everyone thought it was Malcolm. You have to learn to relax and not be so aggressive. That just shows how much tolerance you have, which is unfortunately very little. Whatever, none of my business.

Cell group tomorrow, church service on saturday and sunday. Oh God, I need stamina.

2008-10-16T00:15:00.003+08:00

Hallelujah.
(♥)

A short one and I'm out. School tomorrow ):

Morning was wasted on the computer, along with the afternoon. Shan't dwell too much on that.

Met Ben Tan in the afternoon-coming-to-evening and headed to Clarke Quay where we were all supposed to meet. Decided to eat at the chinese bak ku teh restaurant cause of the budget factors. They arranged all the tables and chairs for us, and served the chili and spoons, all that stuff. Then we decided to leave without even touching anything cause the food there is all... so china-ish. Pig intestine, Pig trotters, Chicken feet, Braised Tofu Skin etc. Felt so bad :/ But it was like a 'walk off, don't turn back' thingy.

Heh anyway bible study was cool. The CL class was pretty empty but well, expecting it to fill up soon :D

Gaaah, I don't know what I wanted to blog about. Everything seems like a "void". Everyone seems to be in their bad time of their life, including me. Every night seems to be the worse time of the day (though the night life should be the best).

Feeling as if everything in life is wearing me out, like I'm stuck in a weight that is spiraling down, waiting for this phase to pass.

Graaaar, whatever. Must believe. Must believe. Must believe.

Have to sleep now ):

2008-10-15T09:47:00.003+08:00

Even if the sun is in slumber, we still have the moon to cover.
(♥)

Idk, feeling VERY confused right now. About everything I guess. It all goes in a cycle, and off from the peak, I'm declining. Things starting to suck ):

I guess the only fun times I have right now is in church, serving and being with church friends. I can easily say that my few closer friends are from church now. The sec 4s are having their o's, and our thinking is starting to drift further apart. Can't really relate that well anymore.

Moving on, had leaders' meeting last night. Covered Psalms 5. Woooo never took so many notes before :D Pastor CK cracked many many jokes too hahahaa. When I reached home which was at like... 11pm, I felt sooo tired T_T. I just showered and went straight to bed. Was supposed to arrange some stuff with Ben but I fell asleep too hehe. At least I did my part of informing the members about BS :D

I felt so sick when I woke up ughhh. It's like I'm having a horrible sore throat or something (prolly too much junk food yesterday), and my eyes are so tired, I sweat throughout the night so I'm so sticky. Goshhhh, life sucks this way ):

Anyway, bible study tonight. My mum's been asking me why I have so many church activities hehe.

2008-10-14T00:01:00.002+08:00

Above all else, there's you.
(♥)

Haha, didn't go to school today. I overslept and yeah, felt so 'hangover'-ed in the morning. I guess I'm starting to get unhealthy agaaaain.

ANYWAY, spent time with my mum today :D Went for lunch with her, talked quite a bit. We haven't spoken to each other for quite awhile so yeah, time to catch up. I know right, we're family but we don't speak. She's too busy at work and I'm busy with other stuff too. Oh well, had to leave the house again for Bible Study at Seb Tay's house :D It was pretty fun, on fellowship. Well I'm pretty certain I know the basics of fellowshipping and why we should fellowship. I do fellowship too :D Sometimes, even if people don't realise it. I try okay.

Going to school tomorrow T_T. Gotta clean toilets for CIP bleh. I wanna go for leaders' meeting tomorrow too! Then Bible Study again on wednesday, either thursday or friday for cell group. Aaand sunday for service. I guess that's what planned for the week heh.

Saving money for my shoes and belt (:

2008-10-12T21:12:00.001+08:00

I want to sleep in a city that never wakes up.

(♥)

OKAY GREETINGS! Yesterday was really really fun :D

Met Ben Tan and headed to town to get Jia Zheng's birthday gift (: Caught up quite a bit on the way, like we always do hahaha. When we reached, we just walked and walked and walked, finding nice stuff for ourselves and for Jia Zheng. Decided to go for a jacket for him lol :D

Then Bush met us and there was this fashion runway thingy in Taka. Maaan the models are so tall T_T. I think we had already completed the part on Jia Zheng's present, so we just did our own shopping. The same familiar shops, familiar products, but still fun in any case :D

Headed to Paragon where ANOTHER fashion runway was held. Oh gosh, so many underdressed people seating on the seats down there. Unfair plssss. ANYWAY, saw this lady with SUPER SUPER HOT HAIR HAHAHA. Only the hair though ): And we caught this caucasian model (I think) stealing glances at us. Hehehehehe.

Okay yupp soo chilled at starbucks for a bit, since we needed a rest heh. Michael came over when his work was over and yupp. Supposedly another girl was stealing glances ahaha. I caught her doing that too! :p Went over to cine where there was this 'National Rock Band Championships' or whatever. It's that game similar to guitar hero, but with vocals and drums too. The people who participated, or rather the people whom we saw and heard perform, were so bad at it. The vocals were just waaay off. But kudos to them for their guts to do it :D Anyway headed to lvl 9, e2max to play foosball :D There was this super hot american aaaaaa. But she was facing my back so I didnt' really see anyway. SOOOO, I saw Jing Sheng there. Yeah anyway we went for dinner at Hong Kong Cafe where Seb worked hahahah!

Moving on, stayed over at Ben Tan's house watching DVDs. First watched Big Stan, pretty funny lol. THEN, we all showered and got ready for the next movie - Mirrors. I wanted to watch it upstairs on the roof but luckily we watched it in the living room. The show is pretty scary, but the scariest thing is that there are things or spirits on the other side of the mirror. And the way the people died were so gross, like Saw ): Ughhhh, after the movie we, or I, were pretty scared to get up cause the living room had a mirror behind where we were seated, one towards our right, and the reflection of glass on my left. Omgoshhh hahahaha. AND I didn't dare to go to the bathroom alone cause there a big mirror right beside the toiletbowl T_T. So we went in together HAHAHAHA. AND AND AND above Ben's bed was another mirror. Oh gosh hahahahah so fun :D

Headed to church the next day and well, praise and worship was awesome. Brother Poh is back yaaay :D Word in season, arise and build is cominggggg. I really want to give as much as I can.

Anyway this is quite a wordy post, therefore I shall add in photos of Sentosa! :D

2008-10-11T00:40:00.002+08:00

Twenty-six for the record.
(♥)

Gaaaah, slept at 5am and I woke up at 12. Good thing I didn't oversleep :D

ANYWAY so met the guys at vivo city, had breakfast (lunch for them) at Toast Box. I squeezed the lime into my mee siam and it tasted so weird :/ Anyway yeah delayed pretty long before heading down to sentosa.

We just played and played and played. Volleyball, frisbee captain's ball-style, wacko, some water in the bucket game thingy. Pretty fun hehee.

Headed on to vivo so Aaron could share with the new friends (and us). Then everyone went to buy whatever dinner they wanted, and we all met back on the rooftop place. While doing that, Seb Tay, Seb Chu and I went to get ice cream from Haagen Daas for the birthday boys: Jia Zheng, and Soo Kiat, and donuts for the new friends. Seb Chu caught it all on video :D Will post it up when it gets uploaded.

Okay today's outreach. Fun factor - 7 half /10. Success in main point of the outreach - 35%.

Games and all were fun imo, but we didn't really interact with the new friends... which was why I think we pretty much failed. Everyone was in their own comfort group and only a few of us went ahead to talk to the new friends.

Oh well, going out tomorrow! I need to escape. Need to rant. Need to rage. These days are so screwed up. I don't wanna go home tomorrow, I shall stay over (:

K la, it's late. Nights (:

2008-10-09T11:43:00.003+08:00

We wet our lips to prepare for the kiss, but it never came.

(♥)

This week is just so darn odd :/ K so like my mum didn't know my exams ended already, and when I was on the computer at 12am last night/morning, she started nagging and nagging and nagging and then I told her I didn't have any exams. Then she went like 'No more exams right? I won't give you money. Go and work for money yourself.' and so like wtffff how2save4shopping ):

Yeah, so going jamming later. Seb's gonna teach me how to play drums! :D Graaaar, cell group later on. I feel like I missed something out, meh.

& not to mention, I feel so frustrated ): So many things aren't going my way. My dad told me to tell my mum not to left the dogs out of the kitchen, lest they pee and shit everywhere. I told her that, and she left them out afterwards resulting in:

1. Pee in the living room.
2. Shit in the living room.
3. Insufficient space to toss and turn around in my bed.
4. Probably an angry dad.

Gaah, life is so screwed ): I feel so dryyy.
I need to rage, seriously ):

[edit]

Ha-ha-ha my legs grew slimmer and I feel sexier than pre-exams :D Though I'm still so ugly cause my hair is short, I'm too thin and yeah many many more ):

Okay! So today was awesome! Hahaha, went to the jamming studio and like so many people were there already. Went ahead to learn drums and I got the basics :DD Then slowly learnt more and more until they went ahead and started warming-up. That's when it got too pro for me ): Yesss but then I can SORT OF play the song 'History Makers'. I've never heard the song before so I don't know when to crash the cymbals and stuff BUT I got the basic beat :D I ALSO managed to get Hosanna :D

The band will all our friends :D Not the full band though.

Yay, I can drummm :D I hate that stoned face though ):

Then the pro took over cause I'm too lousy for the song :DD

And I had nothing to do hahahaha!

Cavin the prooo guitarist hahaha.

Yeahhh gosh Hosanna instrumental sounds so nice :D Not when I play though, obviously. And refuge on keyboard was aaaaanice n_n. Jamming so fun ehehehe.

ANYWAY cell group was pretty good. Could feel God's presence here so I guess I can say I got refilled from my 'dryness' heh.

Went to play soccer after that when everyone left. Wanted to play basketball but some group of oldies doing Tai Chi or whatever hogged the court and 'we couldn't play it incase we hit them'. But the question was why couldn't they just take the soccer court. Pffff anyway we used the basketball for soccer :D. First it was a 2 on 2, Seb & Zac vs Cavin and I. We got owned... UNTIL the Ben Tay's friends came and joined in, making it a 3 on 3. We reshuffled so it's Seb, Cavin and Ben Tay's friend n.o 1 vs Zac, Ben Tay's friend n.o 2 and I. We actually won! Hahahaa, I don't even play soccer anyway :/ Don't even remember playing it the whole of this year lol. ANYWAY switched to basketball once the oldies got off the court. So tired hehe.

Outreach tomorrow, sentosa! Yaaaay time to get an anticipated tan :D

2008-10-08T13:25:00.004+08:00

The city sleeps and we're lost in the moment.
(♥)

YESSSSS. I SMELL FRESH AIR AND BIRDS ARE SINGING. THE FLOWERS BLOOM AND I CAN TASTE THE RAINBOOOOW!

Ahahaha it feels so weird now :/ It's like whenever I play I'll get this feeling telling me to study. Like 'No, study first. You can play after the papers.' But whenever it happens I'm like 'What the, my exams are over alreadyyyy T_T'

Anyway yeah, jamming tomorrow and cg! No more Ben Tan, I wonder how we'll fare this week :/

Sooo yes, to all w400 members. Currently we're planning for a trip to town and we're gonna go shopping :D

I can't blog nowadays. My life is so boring ):

[edit]

OMGOMGOMGOMG THIS IS SO COOL. MY ITUNES HAD SOME WEIRD PROBLEM AND I RESTARTED MY COMP. WHILE WAITING FOR IT TO LOAD, I WAS SINGING 'THE BAD THING - ARCTIC MONKEYS' AND THEN WHEN ITUNES OPENED I PRESSED PLAY AND IT WAS SHUFFLE SONGS MODE AND THE FIRST SONG WAS 'THE BAD THING - ARCTIC MONKEYS' OMGOMGOMGGG HAHAHAHA TODAY'S WONDERFUL.

2008-10-07T18:03:00.002+08:00

We spoke of ghosts and vampires.
(♥)

My.Internet.Is.Killing.Me. Freaking 5.5mpbs >(

ANYWHO, chinese paper completed n_n No comments on that.

Met Seb Tay and his friends, Soon Kiat and Jeremy and we headed to the gymmmm. Did quite a bit, aaaaa my body is aching. Saw SOOOO many guys who had pretty big and buff upper bodies but their legs are so skinny it's literally like a stick. And there also those 'Act cool' kids who are as thin as stick insects, and they're gyming. Like wtf, you're so skinny it's like I can break your bones by kicking you.

Anyway yeahhh, amath paper 2 tomorrow. I better practice sums hehe n_n. I don't know what to blog about again aaaaa, I'll do it another time.

2008-10-06T21:14:00.003+08:00

I'll be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake.
(♥)

Heyhey, went home at 9.50am today n_n

I was like 'Hey guys, I'm GOING HOME. To ENJOY MYSELF' cause some of them still have Bio hahaha :D

Anyway! Emath was so tricky. Omg I hate emath T_T

Met Ben Tan, Seb Tay and his friends to study today. Finished revising a few chapters then joined in to teach the friends math. Omg, me teaching math, seriously. I was such a bad teacher to Venus :/ Sorry! To be honest, the exercise book is so hard okay. I couldn't even do some of the questions and I had to check the answers for solutions LOL. ANYWAY, I don't know what to blog about.

2 more days, chinese tomorrow and amath the day after. Omg I can smell freedom <3.

Okay, take care in Indonesia Ben :D

2008-10-05T19:30:00.002+08:00

I saw love from a psychosomatic's point of view.
(♥)

Okay, so I slept later than usual, resulting in a frustrating headache for the whole day ):

I took a cab down to Boon Lay MRT station to meet the guys, and on the cab whenever the uncle accelerated or made a turn, I felt like puking. Uncle was nice though, he said I looked like I completed NS, and working :D But I told him I'm only 15-16 hahaha. Yeah anyway on the bus to church I had a headache too. I guess it's motion sickness, never happened before.

Aaaand in service well... I guess the word wasn't really for me since I'm currently not in debt but it'll prepare me when I grow up. Had a zone debrief and a photo taking which was pretty weird cause there are so many people. It's like taking a class photo hahaa.

Yeah then... after lunch Ben Tan and I went back together towards the same direction and wow, there were pretty much funny things to see. I guess that was the best part of the whole day haaha. But man, I really miss those times when I was able to relax and have fun without any burdens on my mind. Now it's like... can't go out cause of exams. Even when I'm at home I'm not studying as much as I'm supposed to be. I just really hope I can pass one of my math papers. OMG TIME FOR BRANDS CHICKEN ESSENCE.

Hahaha yeaaah so... coming to church is becoming such a chore in a sense where we have to be dressed properly. I mean I feel that sometimes this will drive the people away, instead of attracting more people. Yes, it might attract new friends but will it burden the members? Oh well, let's just all try to dress well okay. For my age I am pretty sure I pass already. But looking at how everyone else dresses, regardless of age, it's becoming quite stressful cause it's like I want to dress as well as them T_T but I need more clothes aaaaaaaaaaa so frustrating.

Anyway I should take a rest. This headache is killing me ):

Goodbye, world.

2008-10-04T16:40:00.003+08:00

Your light will shine when all else fails.
(♥)

Cell group was so much better than that disastrous week woooo! Or maybe it was cause I tried my best, so I'm glad :D Now now now I really understand the meaning of 'it's okay, you tried your best' or whatever. Heheehe.

Yesssss, so three more papers to go, and I'm finally free. And back to confinement of conc camp, if I'm going >_> Re-exams start on 20 something november (omg?!).

Anywho, nothing much happened today. Woke up pretty late, no idea why. But it was back to that hangover feeling, meh. Well at least I don't suffer from insufficient blood flow anymore (:

Service tomorrow, gosh gotta gather the members aaaaaaaa stressss.

You mean a lot. ♥

2008-10-03T11:29:00.002+08:00

& A picture paints a thousand words.
(♥)

Zomgzomg another week of exams are over! Finally, from today onwards I'll be going home at 9-10am+ huawhuahw. Okay so chinese was so boring. 2 hour paper - I spent 30 minutes day dreaming and 1 hour concentrating on my paper and the rest trying to do both but failing in that aspect.

I don't know what the question wanted, and I don't know what I should write. But yesssss, I got 6 marks from the format of the informal letter. Another4 marks to pass n_n

Okay, hoping for a splendid cell group later on :D

Soo. I guess I'll have to prove myself (:

2008-10-02T14:17:00.004+08:00

The days which daze.
(♥)

HAHAHAHAHA, I ONLY HAVE ONE PAPER TOMORROW AND IT'S CHINESE. STUDYING FOR IT IS PLAIN PREPOSTEROUS. (Omg alliteration n_n)

Yess! So I had Amath paper 1 and Geography today. Amath was so-so, didn't know how to do a few questions due to insufficient practice aaaand geography was so messed up. I didn't know question 3 (flooding) was so easy. I studied for plate tectonics and natural vegetation so I only looked out for those :/ I'll still pass hopefully!

Heh, so for 3 times in a row I have been called to stay back after the paper. First time for long hair, second time to check if I still have long hair, and today was the lamest of all. My index number was under the "Fashion" team. EXACT QUOTES OKAY. So lame please, it was cause of my low socks. My washing machine shrank the socks such that it isn't able to cover my ankle now, AND I'm a growing kid no matter how tall I am I'm still growing okay. Sooo they said that if my index number gets called out again, I will have to stay back for a day of CWO after the exams. You know whaat, I'm sorry but I tried getting into the 'good kid' group already. If I still fail then too bad, it's not my fault.

P.S It isn't my fault that my washing machine shrank the school socks. It's prolly cause it's of such cheapskate material.

Okay, time for a break :D

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Yesssss, today's almost ending and I can proudly say that I have not eaten any solid food since 10.20pm last night till 11.20pm today. So that's more than 24 hours without food yay go me. Was sooo tempted to go ahead and eat, and Jiajun even wanted to treat me 5 bucks omg T_T but yeah, didn't go in the end. Cause God did help me in something :D It was like a suprise thingy. I was like omgosh ahaha. Okay, did I mention that I skipped a day of fasting yesterday cause my mum was feeling down and she already bought lunch/dinner so I felt like I couldn't waste the food so yeahhh. I'm sure God understands right :D

Anyway yeah so chinese tomorrow, gosh I'm already in the post-exam mode. Ahhhhhh. Cell group in the evening, gotta pray for stuff.

ASDPOAKSHPOK STRESSSS gonna do my quiet time nights :D

2008-10-01T15:39:00.002+08:00

... and I missed you.
(♥)

Yay omg so the whole of last night was practically wasted. I ate dinner at 7+, and immediately went to sleep -.- Till like 8.45 the next morning so I slept for 13 hours :D I feel sooo energetic and stuff.

HOWEVER, I haven't started studying yet. Aaaaa, amath and geog tomorrow. Greg Loh expects a distinction from me, and amath... no comments hehe.

So, the rest of the day will just be filled with study break study break study break and yeah.

Omg, nothing to blog about aaaakbye.

2008-09-30T12:50:00.003+08:00

The lights are getting louder and there is fear.
(♥)

You don't have to tell me, I feel it too. My blogskin is getting soo boring each time I come in here :/ I shall change it after my exams :D Everything is after my exams. Gaaaah, one more damned week.

Technically, I had one paper today :D Physics... paper 1 & 2 lolol. It's all at one shot so whether it's one or two papers, you decide yourself k. Anyway MCQ was really easy though I didn't exactly study much so I'm not sure how I'll fare in this subject. Paper 2 was... pffff. I just tried to get as many marks as possible.. yeah. SO, I only owe jj 10 bucks and now I'm debt free and time to start saving for my clothes :)

Yeah okay soooo my hair. It's not that bad. Pretty 'school-boyish'. Soooo kiddish. Arkopaskgh. I hope it grows back by the mid of october :D Yesss and I put some supposedly bronze coloured braces thingy. It's so weird. I have a mixture of white and bronze though I didn't ask for the white one. Oh well.

Sooo second day of fasting. So far so good :D It's the last hour of the fast which makes it so terrible T_T. Time passes so slowly yet so quickly. Have been praying relatively more. I'm sort of cleaning myself inside out :D I feel clean and washed, like getting re-baptised! Oh well, I can confidently say this too :D

The enemy has been defeated
And death couldn't hold You down
We're gonna lift our voice in victory
We're gonna make Your praises loud

Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
Shout unto God with a voice of praise
Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
We lift Your name up
We lift Your name up

Shout Unto God - Hillsong United

Okay gtg clean the dog shit >_>.

2008-09-29T13:51:00.003+08:00

If I could open my eyes, you'll be the first one I see.
(♥)

I made it in time for school today! But the weather is so humid I actually perspired during assembly. Like my first time the whole year, eww.

First paper of the day was english p2, comprehension and summary stuffs. Was so-so, I had to summarize my summary >_>. At first it was close to 300 words, and the limit or so they say, was 150 words. I was like omg T_T. Had to join up so many sentences together, cut off so many words aaaa. I rushed it through and I managed to pull a new copy out in time :D

Second paper was literature, 2 questions from an unseen prose and another 2 from the book To Kill A Mockingbird. Not bad, didn't write a lot though I believe I got most of the points down. Passable :]

Gaaaah, had to ransack my whole brain for vocabulary words to replace others in the 'In Your Own Words' section of english and using profound words to impress the examiners for literature. Goshhhhhh, power of language x[

Then before we were dismissed like 78 (yes I counted) index numbers appeared on the big screen and those people whos number was there had to stay back. Yeah, mine was there. It's for that long hair thing. Anyway, I failed x) Foo Kam Meng is so aggressive sometimes. When it's pretty much my standard of scolding (like super super strict angry/fierce type?), and his face looks so angry. Waaaa, and yeah in the middle of literature I caught Andrew Wong glaring at me. I was like 'What the.' They both have scary faces bleh.

Anyway so yessss, have to get a hair cut. I decided that I want one anyway, since my hair is so hard to style up :/

Sooo going for dental appointment. I'm gonna put on bronze or maroon colour this time :D And a haircut after that. I pray I pray that the barber will understand what is called 'trim, natural back, leave fringe and don't too short'.

Oh yeah, before I forget. It was like during the break between both papers, Ian offered me some pretz. And I actually ate it T_T. I was like 'Wth I forgot I'm fasting.' Aaaaa, restarting my fast from 10am-10pm now )':

Okay, long post :D Byeee.

2008-09-28T21:02:00.003+08:00

& The people in the house are on their knees.
(♥)

I can finally declare I have a new love. I'm proud of it. I shall not be ashamed or affected by any criticism. I. Love. Jesus. Say what you what, but I can't deny it.

Started the day off with a meeting with pastor. Everyone was so unresponsive/quiet/shy. I was too. I would say morning sickness for myself but that's not a good excuse. Anyway yeah, service was good today. Every sunday doesn't go to waste, not in City Harvest at least. Had a special perfomance by some singaporean/taiwanese duo 'By2' or was it Bytwo or Bytoo. Ahh I don't know. They are so skinny it's like anorexic T_T.

Had to meet up with pastor again after service, but this time he was addressing the whole zone. Okaaay so service ended at like 2.45+ I think? Went up to level 4, but was told to come back at 3.40 for the second session. By the time we reached the coffee shop it was already 3.20 and the food came at 3.27 or 3.32, can't remember. So weird, share a plate of Nasi Ayam Penyet (I think it's spelt this way) with Seb Chu. It's like one set of cutlery, one plate and bowl of rice (one for each of us), and a plate of chicken for us to share. Hahaha, it looked weird. Anyway so the meeting was about our dressing. It's time to dress up though most of us may be 'heartlanders', but we can definitely dress like a city person. Then I was just thinking - This church is called City Harvest Church, not Heartland Harvest Church. It had a reason to it, maybe? Haha, yeah sooo I wasn't feeling very guilty during the meeting cause I believe I dress pretty well for my age already. Well except for some people who aren't used to earrings and skinny jeans, they think I'm like some NSK gangster w/e. Honestly that's called narrow-minded.

Yeah sooo had to walk over to Jurong Point to buy some stuff for my mum. I spent so much money though I'm supposed to be saving >( Well, now that I have one reason left to save things shouldn't weigh so heavily on me. And like what Ben Tan said, this is the latest we've left church on a sunday - 7pm?

Gaaaah, okay I need to get a haircut of I'll get demerit points + cwo on my holidays since there's (quoted) "Zero tolerance". Okay whatever.

Also, gonna start fasting tomorrow. Uhhhh, yeah you heard me. Like what the malays are practicing right now, which also ends on wednesday for them? I have no idea how long I'm going to fast for. Probably for however long it takes me to 'regain' back what I used to feel. So you see, I believe my life has been moving quite fast-paced these few months. Had commitments and responsibilities, lost them, and now I have new ones. Holding these responsibilities made me mature pretty much, and my life improved :D

Many people actually think that I'm like 17/18? Back to my point, when my life was having a change, it felt pretty good. But the change has stopped for awhile now, I guess. It's no longer adapting to the 'new me' which was fun, but trying to work things out... if you get what I mean. It's not exactly greedy for blessings or whatever the term is but I want to regain that attitude. Why am I saying all these anyway.

Lastly, I would like to say, welcome back Joshua :D You're out for 3 days but I'm having this dreaded exams so bleh.

2008-09-28T01:07:00.002+08:00

Gaah, ran out of things to start off my post with >(

So. I don't have a sense of fulfillment after doing things nowadays. Like okay, taking up more responsibilities, giving more than receiving, helping out more, being kind-er in many ways etc. So what, those are all momentary thrills that make me feel good for a few days. After that it's back to the same old situation - I'm lost. I don't know what I should do, I don't know what is right. I don't know if I'm supposed to, I don't know how to. I don't know I don't know. Nevermind, press in Ben. Keep it strong.

Met up with Ben Tan to help me find a present for Kristian :D Settled for a Guess Tee in the end. The shirts in NUM were pretty much too big. They're having a weekend 20% storewide discount ONLY FOR THIS WEEKENDS (27/28 september?) so if you plan on buying anything there, do it quick!

Then headed to Kristian's party. Man. It. Was. Big. I wasn't expecting it but there was the band, the buffet, the balloons, the mini-bar, and 30 over people. Oh wow. Well, pretty enjoyable though I was feeling out of place. I mean... Okay. One of the few ACS people, retained, quit swimming. There were only swimmers and rafflesians there and I'm not close to those ACSians. Yessssss, only talked to a few people, lol.

Moving on, meeting with pastor tomorrow at 11am. Waaaaa, gotta wake up by 9. TIME TO SLEEEEP.

2008-09-26T17:04:00.002+08:00

You've been the only thing that's right in a lifetime.
(♥)

Day 2 of the exams : SS and Chemistry .

Today was simply messed up. My mum had to fetch me to school since it was raining, and guess what? Heavy jam. Left the house at 7.10, reached school at 8.10. Duuuuude I can take a bus and reach there in 20 minutes provided there's no jam. That's how close school is to my home. Well you might ask, if the trip to school is so quick why do I dread it? Firstly I have to walk like a... 10 minute walk? Cross an overhead bridge, then from one of the school's backgate I have to walk a 7 minute walk to the parade ground for assembly. Walking sucks :< Especially in the early morning with no one to walk with. Raar.

K soo SS was good! I wrote so much for the first time in my life! Source-based question was like... about population growth. Baby bonuses and what not, sooo I managed to pull it through by applying what I learnt from experience for two years :p Okay honestly last year, I still don't know how but I didn't study SS AT ALL, but I still got a b4. Not bad huh :D I picked the same topic for SEQ - population growth. Something about an ageing population of the main problems which results in the need to have a population growth kinda thing. Second part to it was a work-life balance more incentive than attractive foreign talents to singapore. Whatever, can't really remember. But yessssss, both questions using general knowledge :D

I sooo regretted not studying for chemistry. I think the paper was hella easy, considering I actually had a lot of stuff to write, and I didn't study for it. I'm predicting a D7 or C6 lol. It was so much easier than last year, really.

Anywaaaay going to town tomorrow! Again, yes. Gotta buy a present and I'm going to study too :) If not it'd be so wasted to travel all the way there and not do anything else... and I MUST study too :D Well whatever it is I'd just like to thank my church mates for being so niceeee.

I've been taking care of another boarding dog too, for 50 bucks. It costs my time, my tolerance, and most importantly my freedom ): I have to bring it down for walks every night, (my mum does the morning ones), cause it's a very barky dog so I have to hush every 5 minutes or so? Pfffh, aaaand I can't go out until 6 oct. Well, minimal outings actually. I shan't go out unless it's important (:

2008-09-25T13:20:00.007+08:00

EXAM FEVER

Question:

Answer:

Okay, time to be serious. Exams are already here, not round the corner. But the feeling is still the same as last year's. I don't think I'm supposed to feel like this, right.

Today's papers were English Paper 1 and Emath Paper 1. English was good in my opinion. Though my vocab is getting more limited as we speak, I still managed to pull through a good one-word essay... I hope. The topic was 'Regret'. Well seemed pretty easy since I've regretted many many things. Initially I wanted to talk about not studying and as a result, getting retained but that's so cliche for a retainee right.

Sooo I talked about a child stealing a Gameboy when it was really popular. Well it's not really those kinda of typical child+steal+caught+learns mistake kind of essays. It's more like child with problem+desire+steal+caught+no other chance to redeem himself. Yeah so sadistic. I put encouraging words at the end to spice things up though I'm not sure if it's necessary lol.

Then emath was so pressuring. I have to meet the promotion criteria... that's what I want to do at least. I wanna pass emath and physics, try for amath and fail chem. But the emath paper 1 was so tough. Things aren't going as it's supposed to be ): argfhh I made so many careless mistakes. Aaand no, I don't want to go back and do that paper again. I just want to keep moving forward. I'll prolly screw up my whole life too. Arghhh.

ALSO, to aggravate things, I have to get a haircut cause my hair is supposedly too long. Like HOW IS MY HAIR LONG AT ALL?!?!?! The sides aren't touching my ear, my fringe barely touches my brows (sadly) and okay well my back isn't touching my collar either. Is it cause I don't have a freaking slope?! Retardededed. I refuse to cut my hair. I'll just try to shorten my back and THAT'S IT. It's already short enough. Gosh, how I wish Mr Lim Eng Kong was still here. He wasn't so fussy unlike the CURRENT YEAR 3 HEAD. Douchebag.

SS and chemistry tomorrow. I'll have to study for SS, aaargh.

Anyway went to town yesterday (lol) :]

Jiazheng - 'Ben In Black' (Referring to both Bens).

K, nice shirt wrong jeans. My skinnies were washing so don't blame me ): Thinking of having an all black cell group outing! :D Gotta save like... $170 for shirt and shoes first lol.

Cell group later, yay :D Time to study kbye.

2008-09-23T15:21:00.004+08:00

You play mistery but where are the clues?
(♥)

Yes, the last proper lessons day of school for the year. Was pretty wasted I must say. Didn't really go through the papers I need most. Well, amath... My mind wasn't in it. I just can't tune into the mood right now. Geography, Imma study that over the weekends, crash course for emath and physics right now aaaah. Why am I telling you my study plan anyway.

Soooo like the whole sec 3 (or only the express students) have a copy of my mid-year essay titled 'Superstitions'. It was one of the highest in the class so I had to type a copy of it out and passed it up to my teacher. Who knows it was going to be distributed to the whole level?!?! Ahhhh. I didn't think it was that great anyway. I didn't use any profound-mindblowing/un-pronouncable words since my vocabulary is pretty much limited. And I also remember have 'Superstitions' as one of the topics last year ^_^ Ahhh, cool (:

Mmmk sooo you might be wondering why I'm on the computer since I surrendered my computer to my parents and stuff. Well you see, I got over my addiction. Why? I'd say cause there's nothing to do on this invention anymore. I lost my interest in gaming (so please don't invite me to go LANning anymore), and I finally weighed the exams as 'more important' for now. I might get addicted again after the exams but that'll be after. Sooo yes, although my mum doesn't know about this but I accidentally broke my sister's door. So the computer in her room is now accessable :D And my other old computer broke down, like finally. Omgggg all my songs )':

Haaah, okay gonna eat a little then study!

God bless you :)

Wants:

-More earrings.
-Shorts/berms.
-Tees&Shirts.
-Shoes.
-A haircut.
-Wallet.
-Belt.

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

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- 8GB iTouch - 388, 16GB iTouch - 498. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

I have the goods, now where's the money?

2008-09-21T08:10:00.003+08:00

Okay I'm at Ben's house now :D

Yeah, going for service later on, hopefully it'll be good (:

Damn, one more hour to sleep. Anyway, his house has like moth balls and I'm allergic to them so the whole room smells like it, and I'm pretty scared I'll die (since the doctor said I'll die if I smell excess moth balls due to some medical condition.) So yes, if you want to kill me, you know how.

Anyway saturday's service was good! The word really spoke to me, about sons and daughters, and not being servants and members, but something more. Something which we can do more to help the church, something more which we can all do to find the spark to ignite the breakthrough in each and every member's individual lives! Honestly, I believe in the saying which teachers always use "If you don't help yourself, nobody can help you."

Soooo yes, really hoping a few more people in the cell group would be able to take up more responsibilities, enlarge their capacity to love other people, regardless of how they might act or behave. That is one of the major reasons why the group is not growing, I guess.

Anyway yes, all prepared for service. Will edit later tonight. :D

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OH MY GOOOOSHH SOOO TIREDDDD GAAAAAAHHHH. Really, really, really tired. Energyless, strengthless, weak lethargic sleepyhead.

Anyway, today's service wasn't that good since the hall wasn't packed but that's cause Pastor CK 'donated' members over to another service :) So yessss, more space to multiply I guess. I did a debrief for the group today and I thought I was only gonna do for the west side so I could touch on some issues on being a man, which has relation to being a son rather than a servant. But yeah, I did a debrief for the the east and west people who were there, and I don't know but to me it didn't go too well.

Ahhhh I'm so tired school starts tomorrow and exams start on thursday. I hate my life >(

2008-09-20T00:56:00.002+08:00

Ahhhh, bad day.

School was a drag, amath totally blew my brains off. I couldn't exactly concentrate during white space, especially with an iTouch and WiFi, lol. But my brain was tired. Played NFL with the sec 4s after school, got a burn on my knee from sliding on the astroturf, and a bleeding nail thingy on my thumb. Well, the burn hurts so bad ): Cell group was bad, shan't go into details. Everyone there knew what happened, what matters more is that we move on from where we are, and that we learn our mistakes!

Okay honestly, I have not much of a mood. Tired + braindead + more tired + dilemma.

Whatever, exams on thursday. 2 weeks-span. Great.

2008-09-18T23:51:00.002+08:00

OKAY OMG.

Short update and I'm off.
Well, I just finished studying for like 1 and a half hours straight, physics. Needed two cups of saturated coffee to keep me focused T_T.

Anyway, been studying a LITTLE more which isn't exactly good. I need to study A LOT more than usual in order to escape for conc camp. I plan to fail chemistry and chinese. Take lower chinese, and go for chemistry day camp. Arghhh, my maths are at risk too, both maths. Eveything's so screwed up.

I have to psyche myself up everyday - only 2 or 3 more weeks (I'd rather not calculate how many days exactly, lol) and I can run 'wild' :D I have soooo many plans for the holidays but I'm avoiding any thoughts of it. I can't risk my chances of promoting to sec 4. As if 5 years in secondary school isn't bad enough, I don't want to get kicked out okay.

I can only remember what happened yesterday, had a small meet up with some friends from the cell group. Brought Gerald along, and he's going to come to my church after o's (yay!). The meet up was mainly just a encouragement of us taking more responsibilities and helping out more in the cell group. Aaron said 'Either your cell group experiences a growth in members, or growth/breakthroughs in personal lives.' or something like that. Right now, we're more on the personal lives part. Thus, we'll want to make it as prominent and distinct as possible, or somewhat close to that :D

I have no idea what I just said. Braindead, heh.

Okay, I'm off :)

2008-09-14T21:43:00.005+08:00

You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer
(♥)

I don't know what to do. Where do I go from here. Should I pursue, or should I let go. What is it going to be like. Will it just be a repetition or will there be change? Is it worth it?

Church was pretty much awesome. The word was more or less similar to what God told me during power house :D

Something which was in the book of Psalms 34 (If I'm not wrong :D)

'Do not be like the horses and mules which have to be harnessed by bit and brittle, else they will not come near you.'

And today's word was being a 'son' instead of a 'servant'. Looking back on my notes,

- "son" means "mature person who can handle responsibility."
- being a son (or daughter) is more than getting water baptized and going to church.
- a servant has to be instructed to do something before they do it whereas a son or daughter does not have to.

It's similar! Anyway I'd like to declare that I have officially found my long lost jeans. Not that it's any of your business but I missed it x) Anyway, looking at how my fashion sense has developed over the year, I used to think leg-hugging jeans were crappy and looked disgusting on me but now it seems like it's the only jeans I wear :D And ever since I've been coming to church my fashion sense has definitely improved.

Well I was talking to Ben on the way to church, and he asked for my opinion on the phrase 'A student will be like the teacher.' Well applying it to my personal life, I said that it's only true if the student looks up to the teacher as a role model or a good example. In the context of my dressing now, I guess it is part church-influence, part leader influence. So I guess my dressing kinda follows Ben in a way :D Yes, I'm trying to say that you dress well hahaha :D

Been feeling pretty dry spiritually these few days, and the exams are just like a week or two away. I'm not one bit confident on passing, but yet it doesn't worry me. Am I supposed to be stressed out, or am I just not built for this education? I really want to leave this country. There are so many factors to consider though - friends, family, church etc.

So yes, have to start learning drums really soon according to Seb Tay. He wants to retire and also incase he isn't able to play, I'll take over him. Can't wait for next year, when I'll be able to play at his house :D

Kay I should study now, peace.

P.S. Going on a ABSOLUTELY-NO-FORM-OF-COMPUTER-DISTRACTION-MODE until my exams are over.

I told my mum to confiscate my computer so I won't be able to play it. Hopefully I'll be able to study this way. No MSN nor blogging until saturday, bye :D

2008-09-13T12:22:00.002+08:00

Yaaay, it's the weekend todaaay~

Finally, a break from waking up early to go to school. I only have 2 more weeks before I dissipate! I'm not really prepared yet. Well I'm prepared to fail chemistry, that's for sure. I'm hoping to pass both maths, all my humans, and physics. English, of course :) Chinese... I'll try, haha!

Sooo during emaths. It was the lamest class ever. So you see, the teacher said that if you didn't want to learn, you can just go ahead and sleep, but just don't disturb the class. I learned and understood the new chapter, and I was feeling REALLY tired. So I just went to sleep after like... 30 minutes of paying attention? Then Tan Hiok Mui, having some PMS that day, kept scolding all the people who slept. After the second or third time, Darren and I, WHO WERE BOTH AWAKE (with just our heads on the table. Our eyes were open I promise.), got scolded by Hiok Mui and he was like nagging and us, telling us to stand up since we were sleeping, then shouting at us blah blah blah. Then he was like 'Ben Ong... why are you in this school anyway? Where is your tie...? If you are ashamed of being in this school then just leave!' and I said 'Since when did I say I was ashamed to be here?'

Then also, he mentioned something like 'If you are sick, then stay at home and sleep! Why bother to come to school!' But obviously sir, there are other lessons which are more important that yours, if you have not realised? Touch'e.

Had amath white space till 2.30pm. This year's amath is sooo good compared to last years. I learned/revised the whole of polynomials in 3 days, while it took us more than 3 weeks to learn it last year.

Anyway, had cell group at yu jie's house. Also celebrated Lantern Festival :D

The 3 Ben(jamins) :D

'Oh no... my candle ran out.'
'Let's burn the lantern next.'
LOL.

Haaah, maximum height = 186cm.

Proof of mugging.

^OMG BLING BLING SO COOOOL!

Gheyyy hahaha.

i miss you
(♥)

2008-09-11T23:49:00.002+08:00

Hellohello, soo tired.

Okay so started off with school. I'm starting to enjoy school right now, since I don't waste my time in there anymore. I learn to solve math sums and I feel quite accomplished :D But still, I don't think this is able to last more than half of the school year. It'll prolly start before important exams, and end RIGHT after the last paper.

Yeah so I finally got my physics term 3 test paper back. I got 15/30, super improvement woo. Okay so like I have 2 marks from my MCQ which really really sucks. But that also means that I have 13 marks from my open-ended questions so that's REALLY good for me.

Went to clementi to bowl with the cell group. Today's last day we'll see Bush until he books out from army. Goodbye! We will miss you :D Okay so in bowling we sucked so much. I thought like 70 was bad but I didn't even reach that hahahaha. Prolly cause we were doing so many stupid things. Zac totally owned us all with like 90-100+. Played pool after that, Seb and Ben Tay are soooo pro while I'm so noob. I think I only managed to hit 3 or 4 balls in the pocket, in all the 2v2 games teehee.

Went to Botak Jones for dinner. I thought Botak Jones was some sort of restaurant but it's actually located in a hawker centre! It's portion is reaaaally huge, I'm so full >( Anyway we went to eat at the basketball court since the tables were so small and squeezy.

When Seb Chu asked this man to shift tables cause we had a big group, and we needed two big tables whereas him, one small fella hogging a big table by himself wasn't very fair right?

So Seb was like 'Ummm, excuse me can you shift tables cause we need the big tables...'

And he replied 'But... I don't smoke.'

Wow, go retain dude. You're so stupid hahaha.

Anyway Seb got a Samsung Omnia! It's cool :D So he lent me his Sony Ericsson k800i. Yaaaay, it's so much better than my v3i. Thank God.

Okay, last day of school tomorrow (for the week >[ ). Cell group + lantern festival!

2008-09-10T18:01:00.002+08:00

Whooo, 3rd day of school is over.

I did do work in class today :D

Bio - 1 hour 20 minutes. Spent my time doing Amath, polynomials, so many questions, not enough brain juice ):

Emath - Found out how to do some parts of the past year papers. Shut up it's not last year's paper but 2006's :D

English - Sleeping since the teacher was absent.

SS - Haaa, funny lesson.

Physics - Gotta study heat D: I don't really know about the topic. And I still haven't gotten back my term 3 test paper yet -.-

Chinese - The teacher was actually funny today hahahaha. He's fun to talk to :D But still slept.

Chemistry - Electroysis, Cathode negative, Anode positive. Half equations. Yup, learnt something :)

I officially prefer math to science right now :D It's more interesting and fun to do, imo.

Anyway so there has been the news about the world ending and stuff... again. According to my friends, the scientists have invented a machine which is able to recreate the big bang... and stuff like that. Well I don't believe in that, but I DO believe that the world is ending soon. We are probably one of the last few generations in this world.

All I have to say is that -if the world is ending sooner than expected, I am SO happy. I want to go to heaven already, I want to quit schooling, playing for the rest of my life would be possible <3 But I have to bring more friends with me to heaven! :D

Oh well, two long days ahead! This month is busybuzybzbeee!

i'll be your doctor,
i'll be your cure,
i'll be your medicine and more.

i'll be your doctor,
i'll be your cure,
baby you'll feel like never before

(♥)

2008-09-09T16:26:00.005+08:00

Okaaay so I was slightly late for school. Like 2 minutes late? I was already in the school compound but I'm sorry that the bus stop at the backgate is so far away I have to walk so much just to reach the parade ground?

When I was walking up there was this... staff. This lady, not even a teacher. Commenting on my attitude towards assembly. It's like after singing the national anthem and saying the pledge I just walked up the stairs to the parade ground right. Then she was like "Hey you, you're already late but why aren't you in a rush? Haiyooo -turns to her colleague and shakes head- at least you should rush up la! -turns to colleague again and says 'this boy ahhhh, just walk pass like this' -" Wtf man I mean yo, I'm already late, even if I rush or not, I'll still be late and booked right? So shut up man. It's not like YOU have to go for assembly. AND BESIDES, WHY AREN'T YOU THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE? YOU'RE THE ONE WITH A CUP OF COFFEE IN YOUR HANDS AND YOU'RE STROLLING TOO RIGHT? And I'm sorry if I just walked pass without greeting you or I just ignored you. You don't deserve that respect okay. And wait, I didn't even ignore you. I was just suffering from morning sickness so I was nodding my head as a sign of 'okay' instead of saying those words you want to hear such as 'Ohh I'm so sorry ma'am I will immediately rush up to the parade grounds in the fastest time possible, and get booked so I can hear morning devotion with my fullest attention! Have a good day!' What is with the staff there these days. Anyway the prefect escorted me to the ramp to get booked. Didn't get booked anyway.

Did pay attention in class today, I'm getting better at this :) Managed to understand Amath, revised/learned properties of circles in emath. Had to sit on the floor with like a quarter of the class during english cause we all didn't do our english homework. Then we had to copy the answer to the comprehension 3 times. Soo tiring oh gosh. My neck hurt and all. Watched some video on STDs and aids, sex education. It's better than the videos last year, I must say. The actors did a better job :D

But there was a pretty lame part :

"I love you. Cause I love you. Not because I want to have sex with you." I mean come onnnn, you can do a better job!

Heh so yeah. Self-reminder: Wrist band, shorts, asics sneakers.

we were part of something ours, and ours alone (♥)

2008-09-08T21:20:00.002+08:00

Rawrrr first day of school was yet, another wasted day.
Didn't even take my pencil case out k.

Anyway so I went to take a nap in the afternoon cause I was tired.
I had really really weird dreams. First it was like some lizard thingy. The lizard was supposedly dead, but not really. It's just weird like a couple of us were playing with the lizard. It 'felt' really dry and rough hahaa. Yeah and then I had a dream of God. Like omgomgomg, first time dreamingggggg of God! It was like classroom style, I was taking notes and there were like 8 points. I only remembered 2 which were - Cherish your friendship, and Miss God. Like the 'I miss you' thing. I guess what he's trying to say is that when you're having a really dry season, there seems to be no breakthroughs and everything feels so crappy, you shouldn't always blame it on God or feel disheartened. Instead you should miss him and feel like you need him to be full! More or less, haha.

Anyway soooo exams start on 25th september, ends on the 8th. And since everyone is counting down to the day exams start, I shall count down to the day it ends :) omg, have you thought of it. After the 8th of october I don't have to come to school that often anymore ^_^ omgg.

Yes, I'd better study now. Nerd-mode turn on k.

(♥)

2008-09-07T18:39:00.003+08:00

Man so I slept at 5am this morning, and had to wake up for church T_T I almost overslept it wasn't for the morning call :D

Anyway reached on time k! Praise and Worship was awesomezzz today. Word was GREATTTTT. We were seated at the front-est row so like the camera kept showing us on the big screen. Hahahaha.

School starts tomorrow shit ): but then it's also a good thing. I can finally settle down and tell myself, time to study. Let's not get kicked out of school k :) Thanks Christel, for getting me to study yesterday night hahaha. I did emath in the end anyway :D Properties of circles - seems so easy right now compared to last year :D

Okay, I won't have anything much to blog about for now. It'll be just study study study and more study. Meh, we'll see how it goes :D

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WHAT THE EFFFFF. EXAMS IN 19 DAYS (ACCORDING TO YI CHONG'S BLOG)

WADDAFK WHY SO FAST OMGOGOMGOGMOMGOMG PANIC-MODE-CUM-NERD-MODE-CLOSET-MUGGER-MODE TURN ON AAAAAAAAAAA SERIOUS.

2008-09-06T14:28:00.003+08:00

Okay this post should consist less than 50 words, not including this. I'm just gonna post videos.

Firstly, games committee.

I look like shit here but oh well.

Hillsong <33

Incubus <33

Cobra Starship <33

New Found Glory - Iris (Goo Goo Dolls' cover)

Keaneeeee <33

3 Doors Down <33

And this version LOLOL.

Ok Go <33

Muse! ♥

Dashboard Confesional :D

Okay so that was some of the artists on my 'Shuffle songs'. Now you have an idea of how my ipod is like :D Well, a very faint idea heh. All those hearts make me feel gay /:

Oh well, have fun :)

(I know it's more than 50 words, get over it >:[)

2008-09-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

Kay really tired.

Sub-zone gathering today, games was pretty messed up due to time constraint, almost everything didn't go as planned. In fact, the price of the food wasn't expected either hahaha. I thought it would be more expensive, like prolly 12 bucks for a dish? But I had a... Teriyaki Chicken Cheese Burger. It came with fries too, $7.80. + Another cute drink which was $3.50. I sooo didn't know that k, it was pretty small too ): Total was $13.30 consisting of GST and service charge I think. Okay, you didn't need to know that.

I only had a picture taken with the games committee, will upload it when it gets facebooked lol.

Soooo, on the train going home there was this indian fella singing indian songs. I guessed he didn't exactly know the lyrics to the song (if there even are any) so he was going 'ding ding ding ding' to the tune. EVERYONE in the train was looking at him, even a fellow indian lolol. He was just so in his own world. Pretty hilarious haha.

Anyway, I'm tired.
Goodnight world.

something tells me I should perservere.
something tells me you're the one i need here.

2008-09-03T23:30:00.003+08:00

Whooooo, today wasn't wasted :DD

Spent the morning doing math (yay I know how to do math :])

Then headed for Power House at Riverwalk! It was truly the first time I think I did my quiet time properly. Had a word from God, one of the few times I had it :>

Anyway sooo it was so freezing ): I lent my cardigan to my sis cause I didn't think it was gonna be cold. Mehh. SO, had some curry fish udon thingy for dinner. Tasted like instant noodles with seasoning, without the soup. Still pretty nice though (:

Went to town after that to get my havaianas :D I picked the metallic olive-y one. Costs 50 bucks aaa. I'm so broke now >: I don't know what to blog about lol.

Going to town tomorrow to do some games stuff for Friday's Sub-zone gathering.

Sooo I might as well put this.

SUB-ZONE GATHERING.
VENUE: SHOKUDO, BASEMENT OF CITY HALL.
TIME: 5PM OR 7PM.

It's mainly a dinner for those who have finished exams, preparing for exams, a time to chill etc etc. It will be fun definitely. Those who want to come please tell me byyyyyy, anytime before 3pm on friday? Thanks :) You can bring your own friends too btw.

2008-09-02T01:01:00.003+08:00

Okayyyyyy so... I like my hair. :D?

Anyway wasted the whole morning gaming.
HOWEVER, after lunch and some sleep I actually packed my room. I should have taken a before and after picture!
I hanged all my clothes, put my books properly and tidied everything up. Found a lot of papers which I doodled on, a lot of emo times and good memories <3!

I ALSO found my other handphone charger, an earphone sponge, and a few missing shirts. I threw away so much more stuff which I deemed wasn't important to me anymore. And and and srsly I have so many clothes in my wardrobe that I can't put anymore in. Shitttzzz.

Okay sooo like headed for dinner at 10 plus. Sis rode her bike there just for kicks I suppose, and then we realised that all the stalls were closed sooo we had to leave to another place. BUT her bike had some problem and it couldn't start soo we tried to kickstart it until 11 plus. Had a malay guy to help us do it, after like a few dozen tries he did it so yay time to go. Went to west coast park's McDonalds. Finished, left, and reached home, my sis wanted to go out so she went to go kickstart her bike again right, and I have TOTALLY no idea why my mum had to stand there and watch ( so I had to too -.-). It's already pass midnight, I'm tired I want to rest but noooo we had to wait for something which wasn't our business at all.

I told her 'Can we goo?!' and she held the house keys out and said 'You go home first, take the keys.' And I walked to her to get the keys but she deliberately dropped it before I could take it. I mean seriously that pissed me off. It was totally unneccessary and so shit. Duh, I didn't pick it up so she had to bend down and pick it up herself (hah what a noob). Seriously, I felt like picking the keys up and throwing it to somewhere far away (hopefully it lands in the river). Everything about her pisses me off. Her voice, the way she speaks, her repetitions, behaviour, EVERYTHING POSSIBLE.

It's like 'I think it's a SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSoreeeeeeeeee.' I mean WOW STFU ALREADY.
If you don't know what to say, DON'T REPEAT THE SAME THING 4 TIMES MAN WTF.

Can't take it.

2008-08-31T19:07:00.003+08:00

Yeahhhh. Church service today was good :D
Was about faith. Really needed it. I feel less worried about whether it's going to be worth it or not and stuff :D

Anyway, wanted to go out today but decided not to, instead I'll go out on wed :D

I currently saved 50 bucks, and by wednesday I can hopefully save another 30. That makes 80 (duh).

I wanna buy a pair of havaianas, and then looking at how much I have left, I'll prolly buy something else :) Ahhh, shop shop shop.

Sub-zone meeting on thursday, we're doing refreshments. Omggg for a 150 people, this is gonna get tiring. Looking forward to it anyways :)

I could’ve sworn we disappeared tonight
Come on and dance with me
Come on and dance with me, baby

2008-08-30T15:39:00.002+08:00

Heyy :D

I was in like a HUUUUUGE dilemma yesterday. I never though about things so deeply.

Anyway first things first. Went gyming before cell group, arms aching now ((: But then again I also ate about.. two and a half packets of chips so it's so fattening. Cell group that day wasn't exactly great. I felt that we were trying too hard to bring that day's atmosphere back. We all wanted to start off this cell group with a blast, but I didn't think it went too smoothly. Well, it's just coming from my point of view.

Anyway so I was thinking of a lot of stuff. I felt that I'm not made for singapore, I'm not suited for this lifestyle. I needed somewhere more relaxed, easy going and more open minded people. Singapore is too... fast moving for me. Ahh you get the point. Anyway, so it linked to many many other things. Trust, faith, friends and such. I talked to bush about this and he really helped by giving support and retuning me back into prayer.

Then I also spoke to my mum about this. I NEVER ever do speak to my mum about my thoughts since it'll only go back to 'study' or scolding. But this time I took it all in and I felt muchhhh better after talking to her. I even gave her a hug :)

Haha so yeah, did some quizzes with a friend and the results so pretty true. So coool hahaha.
Oh well, gotta tune my life back on track now :)

2008-08-28T15:35:00.003+08:00

Gufahahaha.
Last day of schooooool I survived woohoo!

Anyway so... yesterday night/this morning was pretty shocking and sudden. At like 12am++ when I was doing my final youtube-ing, Ben Tan asked me to call Jia Zheng's handphone to have a conference. I thought it was like just an ordinary discussion and sharing, and then a prayer.

So I called and they told me that the west side cell group has so called/unofficially 'multiplied'. Which meant that Ben Tan would have to do the sermons and we have to put in more work. Of course, Yu Jie will still be overseeing and supervising us, but it's all different now. Jia Zheng, Joshua and I have to step up and contribute more to the cell group now! Exciting yet nervous, heh.

Sooo yeah, had a really long sharing session. I'm gonna share offering message tomorrow! Gaaah, first time doing it. I've done testimonies and all but this is just on a whole new level ):

Anyway so really excited about this new thing, and I look forward to tomorrow :D

Now, for the screwed up part. I have detention class on saturday. That's so wtf please. I shouldn't have let that prefect book me at all ): DC is from 8am-10am, 1 hour of self-study. Omygawsh. What a waste of time! I think I'm going to skip that stupid nonsense.

Anyway, have a good day :)

2008-08-27T19:15:00.003+08:00

2 more days of schooooool!

I managed to reach school on time again, pretty pleased with myself so far :)

We started the day off with a spot check for contraband items. It just felt pretty scary to me although I never have any of these. Well I was worried for my ipod charger hahaha. They're pretty particular about using the school's electricity to charge stuff. Anywaaay no one in my class got caught so it's cool.

Then came the longest lesson time before recess ever. Geography - 1 hour. Chinese - 1 hour 20 mins (omgg T_T). English - 40 minutes. By recess I was starving ):

The curry chicken cutlet noodle thingy from Fun With Mee isn't that good. Curry is hot and pretty tasteless :/

Anyway during emath the teacher told us to do our own work but since I was too tired I went to sleep. And I was actually quite happy I did cause during lit(which was after math), I paid attention! So yeah I learned stuff k.

I'm still in a dilemna on whether I should go to school on friday or not, since it is really a waste of time. Damn I should start locking my posts since they contain all my plans.
Anyway if I go to school, I have to wake up early and go to school myself. I mean a morning walk is good and all but the waking up part sucks srsly. I'll be exercising (walking around the polytechnic -.-), pass time during lesson(s), celebration. I'd rather stay at home like this.

And if I don't, I could prolly sleep longer, helping to get rid of my eyebags, I'll complete at least a bit of work. And I'll be able to do other stuff.

Aaaah, whatever.

Alsooo, congrats Zoe, my blood sister :)
She passed her bike test! Yeah, she rides a motorbike and she won't fetch me around cause my mum won't allow it ): Pfffh.

because sometimes it's hard to say goodbye.

2008-08-26T15:54:00.002+08:00

Too much school kills.

This week of school is passing by soo slowly. It's only the second day of the week but it seems like monday.

Only 3 more days - ACES day is on friday. We're gonna have this walk around the area for exercise, 1 hour of lessons, and then teachers' day celebrations I think? Some celebration, whatever.

I need my term break to get back into shape aaaah!

Lessons were tiring muchh. The most entertaining one would be geography since sharkboy kept jacking himself, talking about Darwin and stuffs hahaha.

K, on the way back home from school, this NSK girl boarded the bus and stood infront of me. I seriously promise you her skirt was so effing short. It's like a mini skirt okay. Like it's not even those relaxed skirts but those pretty tight ones, and it (barely) covered half of her thighs. Oh shut up, it wasn't as if I was staring at it. I was looking at other people who were looking at her okay, like this small newtown boy hahahaha.

Kbye - sleep.

2008-08-25T19:20:00.006+08:00

Story Of The Year.

Best band in its league imo.
With songs like The Antidote, Stereo, and

Anthem Of Our Dying Day,
they bring emo post-grunge to a whole new level!

Yeah went to school today, last week of school!
Didn't wear my contacts so I couldn't see anything in school ): I was just day-dreaming and stuff, but I did pay attention in certain subjects (:

In chem, I was like voted one of the few people with the least energy. I have no idea why but yeah... I am always sleeping in class hehe. If I'm not wrong, I passed physics :DDDD Like OMGGGGG, it's the first time I passed physics in my whole life!! But it's not really confirmed yet. My teacher didn't bring the marks along, but he just said 'I think you passed.'

My braces are purple now! My aunt didn't let me put grey since she said you won't be able to see it since the metallic braces thingy are also silverish. My teeth so effing hurts ): Especially my front teeth since the dentist put the chain thingy to pull my teeth. Aaaaaaah, I'm in such agony.

Collected my glasses too! It's like 100 degrees higher than my old glasses so I'm not really used to it. It seems too high and I get occasional headaches hehehe. Oh well, at least I can see!

Anyway I'll leave you with some youtubed videos I highly recommend you to watch! It's pretty old but just watch itttt.

Part 1.

Part 2.

Part 3.